What If
"Zach I don't know if this is a good idea." I said while Zach stepped out of the car and walked over to my side. He opened my door and held out his his for me to take which I did.
"Y/N you are already ready and we are here so there is no turning back now." We started walking inside the build for this dinner for some of the hockey players in the NHL. Zach Werenski and I have been friends for a few years now. Zach as been there through so much and I couldn't ask for a better friend then him.
"But what if he's here with a date?"
"Your here with a date." Zach knew exactly who I was talking about.
"We are here as friend Zach and you know that."
"I know. Look I know you haven't seen or talked to Auston since you guys broke up but you are moving to Toronto now you should tell him."
Nine months ago Auston and I broke up only because we never saw each other and I lived in Columbus, Ohio and he lived in Toronto. We tried for so long to make our relationship work in the end we both decide it was best for the both of us to go our separate ways. I would be lying if I said I didn't still love Auston. I am 100% still in love with him. I have been on a couple date but when I went on those dates I thought about Auston and felt like I was cheating on him.
"Zach I cannot just walk up to him and tell him I am moving to the same city as him and expects to get back together. What if he is talking to someone? What if he is in a new relationship? What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore? What if-"
"Stop with the what ifs Y/N. What about this What if he is still in love with you like you are in love with him. What if he hasn't been with anyone since you? What about those what ifs?" Zach stopped walking and looked at me. I could feel the tears in my eyes. Those what ifs never crossed my mind. I always hopped Auston moved on that he found a nice girl to be with because I didn't think I would be moving to Toronto.
"That never crossed my mind."
"Y/N please don't cry." Zach stepped closer to give me a hug but I took a step back. I knew if he gave me a hug then then I would lose it.
"I'm fine Zach I am just going to go to the bathroom and I will see you in there okay?" I didn't wait for him to reply I just walked past him to find the bathroom
A few days ago I got a job interview here in Toronto with a friend of mine who I know through Auston. She owns her own hair salon and asked if I wanted a job and asked me to come and meet with a manger of her salon. I wasn't sure about it at first because I just got out of school not that long ago and I already had a job at a salon but I have heard great things about the Lexi's and couldn't say no.
Lexi is one of Auston's teammates fiancé, Connor Carrick. I asked Lexi to help me make sure Auston doesn't find out that I am in Toronto because I didn't want to see him but once Zach found out I was coming here and asked me to be his date to this dinner because all his teammates were bring dates and he didn't want to be at their table without one. At first I didn't know Auston was going but it slipped out of Zach's mouth. I tired so hard to get out of it but he wouldn't take on for answer because I already said yes.
Here I am at this dinner with my best friend Zach Werenski. With a new job with Lexi which starts in two weeks. I am about to see my ex boyfriend, Auston Matthews, who I haven't seen or talk to in about nine months who I am still deeply in love with. Here I am just looking at myself in the mirror trying to figure what to do with the mess I call my life.
I started to fix my makeup so I could go meet up with Zach and try to have a good time. I heard the door to the bathroom open I didn't look up though when I was putting my things away.
