Warning: Suicide Attempt
Jennie
My mind was racing back and forth, as I lay in this bed, hoping I could escape her. And I know it was a mistake, but who can blame me? When a pretty woman like her - made me gulp down my senses as if it was all for nothing.
Lisa opens the door, her cold eyes tracing my soul like fire. "I want to go to the bathroom". I bit my lip.
"Bathroom?". She cocks a brow.
"Yes, to shower". I muttered, motioning to my body. She suspiciously looked at me, but then gave up. Lisa motioned for me to follow her. And this time, when I saw the man struggling - I didn't even blink a cry. I blankly stared at his teary eyes that were begging me to be set free.
"You have six minutes".
I faintly shrugged the pain inside my heart and nodded before entering. The door wasn't locked, because that's how Lisa preferred it.
As I open the faucet, the water runs down helplessly. Making my thoughts race against the motion of my body to end it all, and as if there was a beginning for me.
When I close my eyes and take a deep breath, I could picture myself flying from a bridge, or drowning myself until my soul gave up on me.
A tear slides down my cheek in remembrance.
Flashback On
My eyes fall shut, water embracing my body as I sink under it. All of the oxygen just like that, gone from me. I could hear the angels whispering for a halo - meanwhile, the devil inside my head laughed at the way my lungs begged for air.
Maybe just like that, everyone would be happier.
My mother. The one who thought I was a failure to the family. Her vibrant laughs echoed inside my head, making me hint at a scream. My body was aching for air, but my scream couldn't be heard.
My head was underwater.
I could feel the way my body was looking for air, but my mind wasn't in the right place to stop it. It was far away - holding a painful smile.
"Jennie?".
I didn't answer, the door opened but I could care less. My eyes started to close with numbness, but she pulled my body out of the water. My lungs finally took hold of the oxygen around me.
But it was pointless - when my soul didn't find any saving.
"Are you crazy?!".
"What were you about—". I coughed and cut her off immediately. My eyes watery and my heartstrings being slowly pulled apart by the pain inside of my chest. "End it all!".
She shrugged her head, "Why? Jennie why would you do this to yourself?".
"Because I'm worthless, a failure to you and to my family. Isn't that how you've always seen me?".
"No". My mother pulled me into her chest, "I'm a failure by letting you see something you aren't Jennie".
"I'm sorry".
Flashback End
Am I really a failure?
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