Tattoo

Chapter 23

This night was terrible. I was waking up every hour and then I fell asleep and then again woke up and this was happening the whole night. I went to the bathroom, did all of my stuff and put on my clothes. I'm really thinking if I have to go downstairs. I mean, I can drink water from my sink but what about food? Crap! I wish I would have a fridge. I walked down quietly, not to let mom know that I'm awake. But there she is sitting on the chair with Erik. Yeah, know I'll be listening how depressed I am and how big mess I have in my 'beautiful' life. They have their eyes on me. "Hey." I said and walked to the fridge. I took a slice of bread, butter and potatoes and sat down. "Lucy, what did it mean yesterday?" my mom broke the sience. "My mental page has broken." I said not looking at them. "How do you feel now?" Erik asked. Oh, I almost forgot that he's also here. "I feel like on a swing, Once up, then down." I said still not looking at them. "Lucy, could you look at us?" my mom asked and Erik sighed. "I'm making my food. After that I will." I said. Mom took the knife from my hand. "Mom? What's wrong?" I asked her, finally looking at her. "What's wrong? Lucy you're mess. You're pushing everybody away, you had a trip to Odense, it clearly didn't help and yesterday you wanted to run away." she said. "I know and believe me I'm sorry that I took both of you to this mess." I said feeling sorry. "Lucy this is not about taking us to the mess, we're just worried about you." Erik said. I clearly don't deserve his love. This is all Marco's fault. If I wouldn't have met him, I would still be in my bubble, keeping myself away from falling in love, but no! I had to met him! "Okey, I have to go cause we have match today. Thank you for letting me stay Mrs Wilson. Goodbye." Erik said and stood up. "No Erik, thank you. And good luck in the match." my mom said and smiled. I looked at my mom and signalized her that I'll go with Erik to our hall. Erik turned around and smiled. "Lucy, promise me that you'll be fine." he said with my cheeks in his hand. I nodded and smiled. "And promise me one more thing- you will watch the match!"he said and chuckled. I laughted and answered "I promise. Good luck and no injury please." He kissed my cheek and left. I came back to the kitchen and mom was looking at me sternly, but softly at the same time. What is wrong with the woman? "Lucy, he loves you. And he's better for you than Marco. Erik is caring, but Marco is the more childish type. He wants only to hang out." mom said. Yeah, these feelings have been in my chest for some time. "Mom, I know that. What are you gonna do today?" I asked her. "Um, I've wanted to spend some time with you." she said looking confused. "Okay, but we will watch the match. I promised Erik." I said and mom laughted. "Aren't you falling for him?" mom asked. "Mom, I love Marco more than Erik. But you're right. Erik is better for me. I'll learn how to love him." I said and want to my room to study a little.
Match time

It's 2:0. Aubameyang scored the 1st goal and Erik assisted. Marco scored the 2nd one. It was about the 60th minute when Marco was fauled. I immediately stood up with hiding my mouth. "M-m-mom! Wh-what the hell?!"I said. Oh God, he can't even stand up. I ran to our hall and grabbed my jacket. "Where are you going baby?" mom asked me. "I-I have t-to see him!" I said while grabbing the keys. Mom grabbed my hand with a worried face. "Mom I will drive safely. I just need to see him!" I said. Mom kissed me and nodded. "Lucy be careful!" it was the last thing I heared.

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I parked the car about 15 minutes walking from the Signal Iduna Park. I ran like crazy. I called Erik to let him know that I'm here. It was about 30 minutes after match. He send a bodyguard for me. I arrived at the lockers room quickly. I bumped into familiar chest. It was Erik. "E-Erik where's Marco?! How is he? Please let me see him!" I said while crying. "Lucy you can't go to the hospital too." he said while holding me since I was bad at standing on my own feet. I grabbed the hem of his jacket and he looked worried. "You don't understand me?! I wanna see him! Please Erik please!" I said and sobbed. He sighed and looked away. "Lucy you can't see him. None of us can." he said. I hit him with my fist trying to be angry, but I was only broken and worried. He hugged me after I hit him. "Shhhh. He'll be fine. I promise. Lucy, look up. Look at me." he said while hugging me. I looked at him, but I couldn't have seen him clearly. "Can you believe me? You'll see him. But not now. When I have any new information about him, I'll tell you, okay?" he said while holding my cheeks. I nodded. "How have you got here?" he asked, still in the same position as we were a minute ago. "I-I was driving."I answered. "You what? Lucy, your eyes are covered with water and you were driving? Something bad could have happened." he said while wiping away my tears. "Nothing could have happened. Erik promise me, promise me that you'll tell me about him." I said and I put my palms on his chest."I will. But don'tthink that you're driving home. No way. You're staying at my place." he said. "Erik no,..." but he cut me off. "There is no way I'll let you drive. I wouldn't survive if something would happen to you." he said. I guess I have to give up.

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We arrived at his place. I called my mom, while Erik was driving. I told her that I'm staying at Erik's. She said that she's okay with it. Since I'm dressed in my tracksuit, I don't need to borrow any pants for sleeping, but I need another shirt. Erik is making tea and I'm sitting on the chair. Okey, this is gonna be awkward. "Um, Erik, could you, could you borrow me a T-shirt for sleeping? Please?" I asked, ashamed of  it. He smiled and nodded. "Follow me." he said so I did it. We stepped into his bedroom. It looked beautiful. The walls were like butter, I mean they have color like butter. There are also 3 pictures. "Do you like it?" he asked, which caused me to snap out of my thoughts. I nodded and smiled. He handed my a BVB T-shirt. "Change now if you want to." he said, but he's still standing here. "U-uhm, how should I change when you're looking at me?" I said and felt my cheeks are turning red. "Oh yeah. You know, it's just hard to leave when I can be looking at you." he said and walked off of the room. I changed into the shirt. It was above my knees. I stepped into the living room. "You should wear my clothes. You look cute." he said. I think it won't be that hard to fall in love with him. But there's still Marco. "Erik, what about Marco? Any news?" I asked quietly. He looked down and sighed. He was dissapointed that I'm asking about him again. "Well, he's still in the hospital. So no news." he said and looked at me sadly. "I wish you would care abot me that much." he mumbled. Oh, here we go. "Erik, if you would be in the hospital" I was saying, while stepping closer to the place where he was sitting "there would be nobody that would keep me away of coming there. Even if they would tell me that they will kill me if I come to see you, I would go." I said when I was standing in front of him. He stood up and looked me in the eyes. "Is it true? Or do you wanna make me feel better?" he asked. Lie Lucy! "Truth." I said, He grabbed my cheeks and was leaning in to kiss me. I closed my eyes. Then his lips crashed against mine. It was soft kiss. We pulled away and he rested his forehead on mine. "I wanted to do this for so long." he said and smirked. He loves me. He really does. But what about Marco? "Lucy, I don't wanna scare you, but..I love you. I really do. And be sure that I'd never ever hurt you." he said. I know, but there's Marco. "I-I love you too." I said feeling my heart aching. He smiled and kissed me once again.