Tattoo

Chapter 19

It's already Saturday, what means that the week off is over. I tried to learn something, but it's a lost cause. I can read at most 3 words and then I think of them again. I need to do something with it. I have to focus, if I don't wanna ejection from school and believe me- I don't! I don't even know how this idea has crossed my mind, but I think that it'd be better if I would talk to each of them. I had texted Erik something like 'I need to talk to you. Meet me at my place at 13? Lucy' and after 5 minutes he replied 'I'll be there in time. Erik :)'. From that smile I can guess he's happy that I wanna talk.
13:00

I opened the door when Erik was just about to knock. I saw him come, so I immediately went to the door. "Hi."I said. He didn't even answer, he has just hugged me. "Erik! I'm out of oxygen!" I said breathless. He pulled away and laughted. I can't manage myself to say something so I'm just standing here and looking at him like he's saint picture or something. "I guess we could go to the living room maybe?" he asked and I nodded. I let him go first, he sat down, so did I. "Um, will you have-will you have something to drink?" I asked. "No, I'm not here to drink Luc." he said kindly. I nodded and looked down. He then sat next to me. "Lucy, you wanted to talk, yet you haven't said anything." he said. "I-I don't know, w-why I've called y-you." I said feeling more confused than at the maths test. "Lucy, I know that the feelings inside of you are probably so mixed that you can't even say if you like cola or fanta more, but you need to get through it. I'm not saying it just because of me, but because I want you to be happy." he said. I've already felt tears in my eyes. "Luc, when I saw you in the café, I can't even describe how happy I was. I thought that you left again and that maybe I won't see you for a long time. But when you ran away, I felt terrible. The way you looked, your eyes were red and you.. you've lost some weight." he said. I nodded. "3 kg." I said and laughted. If mom would hear me, he would make me eat the whole fridge and then we'd order pizza. "You need to restart." he said. Restart? "You really think that it's so easy? Marco loves me, so do you. But I don't wanna hurt any of you! Erik I can't control myself, I can't even focus on school! I can read 3 words and then my mind drifts away! I can do nothing!If it would be so easy I would restart, but it's not that easy!" I said crying like crazy. "I-I just don't wanna hurt you, nor Marco." I said sobbing into his chest. "I know, I know it's difficult. Just tell me how to make it easier and I'll do it." he said. I can see myself crying here the whole day. Oh God! I just hate my life right now!  "Hm? What shall I do? Sing? Tell you a joke? Cook?" he asked. It made me cry even more. Why the heck am I so emotional? "Shhh, please, please baby don't cry!" he said. Baby? B-baby? I looked up at him, he has relized what he said. "I-I'm sorry. It has just split out of my mouth so natural. I'm sorry." he said. I know what I want. "Erik, take me to the training ground please!Please!" I said. He looked confused. "Erik please!" I said. He nodded and helped me to stand up. I took my jacket and we drove off. Why the training ground? It's the place where I saw Marco playing for the first time and that's also the place where I met Erik for the first time.
At the training ground

We were at the parking lot right now. Erik was about to lead me to the training ground. I saw Marco there. He was kicking the ball as strong as hell. When he saw me he let out hurtful look and ironic laught. What is here to laught for? I made my way closer to him and Erik was following me. "What are you laughting at?" I asked with a broken voice. "What? Lucy, you aren't answering the phone and then you've just appeared at the training ground with him?" he asked. "What? You don't even know why I'm here for." I said feeling that the tears were about to come out. "What would you be here for? Do you wanna kick the ball with your boyfriend? Go and do it! I am leaving!" he said. I just started to cry again. Why is he behaving himself like a jerk? I ran in front of him and stopped hi  my index finger bumping into his chest while talking. "First of all, he isn't my boyfriend, second I'm not here to kick a stupid ball. I'm here to think! Why here? Because this is the place where I first saw you playing and where I met Erik for the first time!Marco you don't know how I feel! I can't think properly!" I said while my face was covered with my tears. Erik then came behind me and told me "Lucy! Take a deep breath!" What? I made my way out of his arms. "I don't wanna hurt any of you Marco! Can't you understand me? And when you're being ironical I can be too, can't I? So where is the guy that was nice and kind? Huh Marco? I know, don't answer. Once you relized that I can love you and I can be yours you've stopped giving a fuck about me! I hurt my ankle and you didn't even bother to call me! You don't bother to care about anyone else, but yourself!"I screamed. "I wish I would have never met you!" I screamed and then I saw his eyes. "W-what?"he asked. "What what? I actually started to believe that you could love me! I was so stupid, why would Marco Reus love me? You can have any other girl why me? I thought that maybe we belong to each other, but no! I can be sure that you were thinking about me as a little romance! But you know what? I don't need that!" I said. He was out of words. I saw that his eyes were waterring. "Lucy.." he said but he wasn't able to continue. "No! You don't have to say anything. I think you've already done enough! I've finally said what has been in my chest for so long! It's all your fault Reus!It was supposed to be an ordinary day, but you had to change everything in my life!" I screamed and went away. I was at the parking lot and I felt my legs go weak. Erik made it in time before I would fall down. "No! Lucy! Please pull yourself together! You can't do this to yourself!" he said and kissed my head. "E-Erik get me ho-h-home please."I said. "Sure! But I need to get you into the car. You need to help me a bit Luc." he said. I nodded and lifted my weight. "You've really lost some kilograms." he said, trying to make me laught, but I have no energy for it.

We arrived at my home. Erik helped me inside. He set my in the couch. "T-thank you."I said and smiled a little. "That's nothing. Where do you have a blanket?"he asked and I pointed to the other side of the room. He came back with a blanket and covered me with it. I smiled and he asked "Should I make you tea?" I shook my head no. "Lucy, would you mind if I stau here?" he asked. Stay here? "Why?" I asked. "Because I wanna make sure that you'll be fine." he said. This is really the first person who cares about me lately. I nodded and he smiled. "I'll switch on the tv."he said and switched it on. When the film ended I sat down and looked around. "Do you wanna something to eat? Let's eat."I said and relized that I had answered the question by myself. He laughted and nodded. What if all of this was meant to be? Just to make me believe that somebody could care about me?

Marco's POV

"It was supposed to be an ordinary day, but you had to change everything in my life!" or "I wish I would have never met you!" were replaying in my mind over and over again. I know what she has wanted. All she wants is somebody to be here for her, to help her when her mother's away, but most of all to care about her. But Erik can do it. I know that they'd be happy together, but I love her. I wanna fight, but these 2 sentences aren't going to let me sleep tonight.

It's a little emotional part. Will she choose Erik or Marco? Which one is better for her?