Tattoo

Chapter 52

The 27th December 2014

We spent our Christmas in peace and as a family. Erik loved the gift I gave him, but it's incomparable with his one. He gave me a bracelet. The place were we met was written there, but also L&E. We're currently at home watching tv. "Lucy?" Erik mumbled. I looked up and smiled. "Yep?" I asked and he kissed the top of my nose. I got used for Erik. I mean, he's perfect. But I can't still say in a honest way "I love you". Of course I tell him, but it's not that honest. "Where will we spend the New Year's Eve?" he asked and I shrugged. The news on tv started. "Borussia Dortmund star Marco Reus was seen in Miami, Florida. Is he running away from the 'driving license' problems? Or girlfriend problems? Well, we hope that he will find a girlfriend soon so she could treat him well and he would be fine." the tv presenter said. I got pale and I feel like throwing up. "So what if he's in Miami?" Erik said angrily. "It doesn't matter. Uuuum, we could spend it here?" I said changing the theme. "Why are you changing the theme?" Erik snapped. "What?" I exclaimed. "You've just changed the theme. Why?" he asked slowly. Fuck it all! "Because I have nothing to say for it. So what if he's there?!"  I screamed. "I don't know. I was actually thinking if we should go to the Us for some time. But when he's there we're not going anywhere." he said and I laughted. "You cannot be serious! You don't wanna go there just because he's there?! I knew much sooner that this shitty news that he was there and I haven't said a word just because I knew that you would get this mad!" I screamed and Erik stood up. "You knew?! How?! Why?!" he screamed. "Don't  you scream Erik! Don't you dare to talk to me like this!" I said and he giggled ironical. "I know it just because he sent me a text. A stupid text!" I said and he put his arms on his hips. "You're texting with him?" he asked in disbelief. "No! But I can't do anything! He has my phone number! He can call me or text me whenever he wants to!" I said. "Then you're getting a new phone number." Erik said calmly. Oh this guy isn't going to tell me what shall I do. "You're crazy." I said. "Yes! Yes I am! But it's because of you! Because I don't believe that he will let you go! He will talk to you when he gets the chance!" he said. Saying him he meant Marco. Fuck. This is enough. "You don't believe me?" I asked him and he looked down. "Erik Durm you don't believe me, do you?!" I asked and he looked back at me. "Lucy, I don't believe him. He won't keep his stupid fingers away from you and what if you fall for him?" he asked and I laughted. I should have never forgiven him. What's enough is enough. "You know what? Watch me!" I said and put the bracelet on the table. I ran to the bedroom and locked the door. "Lucy! Open the door! Please!" Erik screamed and I laughted. "You're a football player! Break it down if you want!" I said and packed my clothes. I smashed it onto the bag and unlocked the door. "This is over." I said and walked in the hall so I can take my coat and shoes. "Where are you going?" he asked with tears in his eyes. This is his fault. I should have never believed that we could be a couple. "Isn't it obvious? I'm leaving!" I screamed and put on my coat. "Erik this is it. There were 2 fights and at the last one I told you this is the last chance. You won't get any other. I thought that you would believe me! That you would trust in us. But you don't." I said and he sighed. "You will look for Marco, won't you?" he asked and I laughted. "You are crazy! Fucking crazy! I will! I promise I will! I'm heading to the airport right now! Freaking right now! I will give him your best regards!" I said and slammed the door behind me. "Lucy please! Don't leave! I love you. I'm sorry!" Erik screamed and run after me. I put my bag to the car and turned around to see breathless Erik there. I went closer to him and took his hand. I put a key on it and closed his palm. "You're not ready for this. You don't belive in love, in me, neither in us. Goodbye." I said and drove off. I looked in the mirror and saw Erik looking at my car while standing there helplessly. 

At home

"Mom what if you're right?" I asked mom and she sighed. "Right? What do you mean?" she asked and sipped the coffee. "What if Marco is better for me?" I asked her and she smiled. "Are you telling me this or are you asking me?" she said and I laughted. "Lucy, Marco can be the trouble boy, but he loves you. He texts you every day. Maybe, thinking that you will be happy with Erik without truly loving him was stupid." mom said and I giggled. "It was stupid. I used him and I'm sorry for it." I said and looked down. "Where is Marco?" she asked and I sighed. "He texted me that he's in Miami. I also know the address. Before he texted me, he had sent me another message asking me  if I'm coming with him." I said and mom smiled. "Sweetie, this is your decision. You can wait for him here, you can go to Miami and meet him there or you can also be without him." mom said and kissed my forehead. "You wouldn't be mad if I go there?" I asked and she shook her head. "Everybody makes mistakes and if you can admit it. Admit that you made a mistake, or couple of mistakes, then it's perfect." she said and I smiled. "What about Erik? What if he sees us together? What then?" I asked and mom shrugged. "You will tell him that you're sorry and he's not the one for you. It's up on him if he accepts the fact or not." she said and I smiled. "I love you mom." I said and hugged her thight. "Are you going to Miami?" she asked and we had pulled away. "Maybe." I said and she smiled. "I want you to be happy. So I'm telling you go there! Go and find Marco." she said and I run to my room. I packed some clothes and run downstairs again. "Mom, you flight quite often... can't you... can't you please call the airlanes and ask them for a ticket? The soonest one?" I asked unsure and mom smiled. "The plane takes off in 2 hours. I'll drive you." she said and I hugged her again. I'll be happy. But I need to tell Marco everything. Everything. Also that I've never loved Erik like I love him. I haven't cried this time. I haven't cried while leaving Erik. I guess that all my tears have been used up. On Another love, on another love, all my tears have been used up.