Tattoo

Chapter 40

I woke up at 9 and Erik was beside me. He was sleeping with a smile on his face. I made him some toasts with eggs, like the previous morning and heared the footsteps. "Hello lucky charm." he said and kissed me from behind. "What am I?" I asked now facing him. "I want you on every single game! You brought us luck!"mhe said and I chuckled. "Go and eat." I said and pointed to the plate. "What's thaaat?" he sang and I smiled. "I definitely love you." he said and started eating. "You love me because of the food?! That's sad!"Imsaid and crossed my arms over my chest. "No. No." he said and stood up. He put his arms on my waist and kissed the top of my nose. "Not only because of the food. You're beautiful, clever, kind and funny." he said and I smiled. "Would you mind if Julian comes today?" he asked and I chuckled. "Of corse I don't mind. This is your flat you know? You can do whatever you want." I said shrugging. "No. This is our flat. Our flat." he said and I nodded. "Shall I cook something special? I mean, what does he like?" I asked and he smiled. "Nothing special. We'll talk and maybe we'll go for a walk together then, okay?" he asked. "Okay. But I should probably stay here. I can't walk that much." I said and Erik shook his head. "No. We'll walk slowly." he said and kissed me. He was making our way to the bedroom, but I stopped us. "No. He'll come and catch us." I said while laughting. "Nooooo. He won't come this early." he said and continued kissing me. "Still no." I said into the kiss and he groaned.
Evening

"Did you enjoy this day?" Erik asked as we were sitting on the couch. "Yes. Sure. Julia is nice as I said before." I said and Erik smiled. "I'm happy you get along well." he said and I smiled.  "I'll go to bed." I said and Erik kissed my cheek. "I'll come too in a few minutes. Goodnight." he said and I nodded. I changed into my pyjamas. Tonight is a party and Marco is there. Wait, why am I thinking about him?
The next morning

I woke up and found Erik deaply in a sleep. After the bathroom stuffs and eating, I switched the tv on. I saw the headline 'Getting drunk while being injured'. My heart skipped a beat. There was a photo of Marco and a blonde girl. The commentator then spoke 'Marco Reus was seen in a Dortmund club having fun with girls. There are a few pics of him and a blond girl. Is this his new girlfriend?'. I feel like throwing up. There's a pic as Marco and the blondie are dancing. If he is drunk, I know that Marco is with her in his bed. They slept together for sure. I ran to the bathroom and locked the door. I washed my face with a cold water and looked at myself in the mirror. Mess. I am mess again. As much as I don't want him to affect me, he can do it so good. "Lucy? Are you fine?" I heared Erik asking from behind the door. "Um, yes. Yes." I said and opened the door. "Heey. You're pale." he said and grabbed my cheeks in his hands. Yes. And can you guess who's behind this? Marco! Unexpectable, right? "No. I mean, I ate the food too fast. I'm good." I said ahd walked past him. "Are you sick?" he asked while following me. "I'm fine! Perfectly!" I snapped and Erik stopped walking. I immediately relized that I screamed. "I'm sorry. Sorry." I said and sat on the chair. I held my head in my hands and Erik sat next to me. "It's fine. Go to bed." he said and smiled. Oh, I wish it would get better by going to bed. "No. I'm fine. Do you wanna something to eat?"I asked and faked a smile. "No. I'll make my food myself. You'd get sick." he said and I nodded. I don't deserve him. I mean, I like him, I really do, but then I relize what can Marco do with my feelings and I go crazy. But, there's one more thing. If Marco really loves me, he wouldn't have flirting with a blondie. "Lucy? Can you hear me?" Erik asked. "Wh-what? I- I wasn't listening. Sorry." I said and he nodded. "I was asking if you still wanna visit the christmas markets?" he asked. As I said before, I don't deserve him. "Uuum, I don't feel like walking with my ankle. I'll go, but next year." I said and he chuckled. "As you say my lady." he said and kissed my hand. As much as I try to shake Marco out of my mind, it's impossible. He was looking at me at the match and 2 days after? He's flirting with a bitch. "What will we do today?" he asked me and I sighed. Think! "Um oh, I need to go home and take some textbooks. But it will take an hour at most." I said and Erik nodded. Textbooks? Really Lucy? "Will we go for a slow walk?" he asked. "No!" I said immediately. "I mean, I don't feel like walking." I said calmly and he smiled. "Okay. Sooo you go for the textbooks and I'll choose some programme." he said and I smiled. I got up, but Erik grabbed my hand. "I haven't got a kiss today yet."he said. Honestly? I feel like throwing up, not kissing anybody. I sighed and turned around so I face him. I kissed him and he's smiling into the kiss all the time. "Okay. I'll come back in a few." I said and grabbed my keys. As I sat in the car I felt an urge to punch the wheel. So I did it. I drove off to my house. I grabbed 2 textbooks I 'need' and went to the park. I sat down on the bench and put my head between my hands. I feel terrible. I don't know how it is possible that he can always affect me. "What's wrong?" somebody said and sat next to me. It's Leo. "My sick life." I said. "What's happened this time?" he asked and I chuckled at the 'this time'. "I woke up and switched the tv on. And there was Marco Reus with another girl on a party." I said and sighed. "And what have you been thinking? That he will continue with making you come back or what?" he asked and I shrugged, "Leo, I don't know what I think." I said and burst into tears. "Lucyy. Oh God. Where's Erik?" he asked while rubbing my back. "At home." I mumbled while crying. "There's one problem. You love both. Marco and Erik. Luc, you need to choose one of them and start forgetting the other one. You need to do it or you'll destroy yourself." he said and I nodded. I stood up and sighed hard. "Where are you going?" he asked. "I've just chosen. Erik would never hurt me." I said and Leo sighed. "What if you choose wrong?" he called and I turned around. "Then I'll pay for it." I said and went home. I opened the door and put the keys on the table. "I'm back." I mumbled which caused Erik's attention for me. "Have you been crying? You're red." he said. Think of the best excuse. Think. "I felt my ankle hurts while walking so a tear has fallen. But I'm fine now." I said and smiled. "Shall we go to the doctor's?" he asked, but I shook my head. "I'll wait til Friday cause I'm supposed to come." I said  and Erik smiled. "Okay." he said. "Did you get the textbooks?" he asked. "Textbooks?" I asked. "Yes? You said that you need to get some textbooks." he said and furrowed his eyebrows. Shit! "Yes. They're in the hall." I said and smiled. "Let's watch something on tv." he said and lay down. He settled his head on my lap. "Can I stay like this?" he asked and smiled in a sweet way. "Yes. Sure." I said and caressed his head. I can't let him know that something has happened. He switched the tv on and there's the fucking stupid headline there again. 'Marco Reus was seen in a Dortmund club having fun with girls. There are a few pics of him and a blond girl. Is this his new girlfriend?' Erik sat down to see my reaction. I only chuckled. If he was there when I saw it for the first time, he would have relized that I still have some feelings. "That's all?" he asked me. "All? What do you mean?" I asked. "The chuckle. Is that all?" he asked and sighed. "And what am I supposed to do? Cry? Why would I do it?!" I exclaimed. "Nothing. Okay." he said and I stood up. I've almost fallen down cause something cracked in my ankle but Erik 'saved' me. "Ankle?" he asked worried. "Something cracked." I said and he lifted me up. "What are you doing?!" I exclaimed. "We're going to the doctor's." he said.
At the hospital