Tattoo

Chapter 28

It's already Thursday what means that mom won't come home very late. I watched the BVB match yesterday and they lost 0-2. Erik didn't play a minute. I feel bad. Again. It's just this stupid thing that I can't decide. I am too afraid of getting hurt again. Anyways I have to go to school.

I was killing my time in a park. My class begins in an hour, that means that I have still much time. I was sitting on a bench when somebody cleared his throat behind me. I turned around and saw Marcel. "Hi." I said and looked away. "Why have you left then?" he asked, heading straight to the point. "Ur. Um, Marco had to go so what was I supposed to do?" I asked trying to defend myself. "That's not the problem. You can try to lie, but it won't work." he said. Is he a soothsayer? "Who are you to know how I feel?" I asked. "It doesn't matter. What's going on?" he asked. I sighed and relized, that he won't leave me alone til he knows the truth. "My head? My heart?" I said. "W-hy? Wh-what? I can't understand." he said. "The thing is that I can't choose. I know Marco loves me, but Erik loves me too. And if I should choose by who has hurt me less, it would be definitely Erik." I said and feeling sorry for it. But it's the true. "But you won't choose by it. Right?" he asked. "He even sent me flowers. Red roses." I said and a sad chuckle left my mouth. He looked away and sighed. "Look, I.. I know that it hurts, but..." he was about to continue when I cut him off. "What? You don't know how does it feel! You have no idea! My ex cheated on me! I promised myself not to fall in love again, but that friend of yours has changed my mind! Then he hurt me! Then I met Erik and relized that he can love me!" I snapped in one breath. "Your past is your weak space. Get over it!" he said. Yeah, that's right. "I know it is. But to try to be in a relationship means that possibility of getting hurt and I don't think my heart could take it." I said. I got stronger. I can feel it. A month ago, I would be crying right now. One guy in the school told me that I'm heartless. Could it be? "Look I have to go. My class will start and I don't wanna miss it." I said and was about to leave when he grabbed my wrist. "To be tightened on school won't help you. It's your decision. But one guy said 'The biggest adventure you can take is to live your dreams' and I know what's your dream. It's to love and to be loved." he said and left. The biggest adventure you can take is to live your dreams. Yeah.

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This school day was soo boring! That guy who told me that I'm heartless yesterday has apologized. He said that he was just sad. Yeah, he invited me out, but I rejected. I am currently walking down the street. I wanna grab some chinese food since I don't feel like eating whatever is in my fridge at home. I opened the door and greeted the waitress. "What would you like to have?" she asked me with accent. "Could I have Kung-pao, please?" I asked. "Yes, sure." she said. I handed her the money and she gave me my food. I opened the door and stepped out. "Lucy." somebody behind me said quietly. I turned around and saw Erik. A new haircut. "Um.. Hi." I said and rubbed the back of my neck. "Why didn't you respond on my text? Have you recieved the roses?" he asked. Yeah roses. Red ones. "I didn't know what to respond. Aaand yes, I have. Thank you." I said and looked away. He took a step closer. "Your favorite ones." he said and smiled. I nodded. "Lucy, I-I miss you. Could you please, please forgive me?" he asked. I shook my head. "You have actually nothing to be sorry for. I..I just overreacted. I should be sorry." I said and looked him in the eyes. They were shining at the moment. He chuckled. "Sooo, that means that we're fine now?" he asked and with every single step he was getting closer. I was confused. What shall I say? I don't know! God help! "Get away from her!" somebody said and grabbed Erik's jacket and dragged him 3 meters away from me. It's Marcel again. Is he stalking? "M-Marcel let him go!" I said and put his hands away from Erik. "W-what was that?! Would you really allow him to kiss you?!" he screamed. I looked between both of them. "W-what?!" I screamed confused. "She is not yours! She's Marco's girlfriend!" he told Erik pointing at me. What?! No! I'm nobody's! "She's not his. You have no right to say that!" Erik said. "He's right! At the moment? I'm nobody's! Nobody ownes me! I'm not a thing somebody can own!" I screamed. "Okay. Sorry. Sorry. But if Marco would see this.." but I cut him off. "Then what? What would happen? Would I hurt him? Or what?" I asked him. "Yes! Yes, you would! He loves you! Get it into your head lady!" he screamed and pointed to my head. "The last thing I want is to hurt somebody! I don't want hurt anybody! What do you want me to do?! To bet through everything just like that?! The relationship should be perfect at the start! But it wasn't, what means it would get even worse!" I screamed. I grabbed Erik's hand and dragged him away. I stopped and looked at Marcel. "The biggest adventure you can take is to live your dreams. You're right. My dream is to love but to be loved too. But my dream is also to have somebody who I can rely on when I need it. And my dream is also not to get hurt again." I said and walked away with Erik following me. "Lucy, stop walking." Erik said. I turned around and was about to say something, but he didn't let me. His lips landed on mine. After a while a pulled away in need of oxygen. He was holding my cheeks. "You don't even know how long I was dreaming about it." he said and smiled. And that's when I figured something out. Marcel was pushing on me to choose Marco. But Erik? He didn't say a thing. Instead he sent me flowers. I chuckled. He was surprised at my reaction, but smiled. "Can we get back? Where we were ooon.. uuum.. on Monday morning?" he asked. I stepped on my tips and kissed his cheek. "I take it as a yes." he said. "You better take it that way." I said. "Well, we should get going or the people will start noticing me." he said. "Ooooh, don't think highly of yourself." I said. "Who says that I meant they will start noticing me?" he asked. Wait, what? "And what would they start noticing?" I asked a bit confused. "Your beauty and my new haircut." he said and laughted. "Oh oh oh! About your hair, it's not bad!" I said. He was about to kiss me again when he noticed that I was cold. "Let's go. You're cold." he said and I nodded. He took my hand and led me to his car. We get in the car and he was smiling happily. "What is our destination?" he asked. "Uuum, you're invited for a late lunch. And I honestly don't care if we're at your or my place." I said kindly and smiled. "Then my place. Anyways, what did you cook?" he asked. "Are you hungry? Kung pao." I said. He patted his stomach and I laughted. We stepped in his apartment and he closed the door. "Um, I'll go tk the kirchen." I said after I had took of my coat. "I'll get changed." he said. I nodded and headed to the kitchen. I served the food on plates when I felt his hands on my belly. He was kissing my neck from behind. Well, I'll have to get used to it. "Stop it! I'm hungry." I said and took the plates. He was still walking behind me with his hands on my tummy. What's wrong with my stomach?! "Mr Durm, do you have any problem with my tummy?" I asked and laughted. "None. I just find it a bit unbelievable that you're here, with me. After you had told me to forget you, I was sad. I thought that you ended with me for good." he said. Oh God. I wanna forget."Erik, please could we forget it?" I asked and looked up because he is taller than I am. "Yeah, but only if you promise me that you won't leave." he said and looked straight into my eyes. "I promise." I said and was about to kiss his cheek, but he grabbed my chin and kissed me on the lips. Maybe I will fall for him earlier, if I keep kissing him on the lips. I tried to make a sound to stop him. When he relized what I was doing he smiled into the kiss. I pulled away and laughted. "The food is getting colder. Let's eat." I said and he nodded. After we had finished the meat, we washed the dishes. "What's the time?" I asked. I should probably go home. I have school tomorrow. "About 15. Why?" he asked. "I should go home. I have school tomorrow." I said. He made a sad face and stepped closer. I put my hands on the hips, getting ready for what he's gonna say. "What if you would stay here? You said that your mom will come home late." he asked. He's right. But I have no clothes here. "I don't know Erik. I have no clothes for tomorrow here." I said. "We could get some." he said. I was thinking. He was leaving kisses everywhere on my face. "Please. Baby. C'mon. Pease." he said. "Okay. But we have to get my clothes right now." I said. He smiled, took the car keys and we left.

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I took some clothes and my textbooks. We are already back at Erik's. I left my mom a note saying where I am. I put my bag on the floor in his bedroom when I felt hands on my waist. Erik put his hands on my waist and turned me aroud so I could face him. "You have made me the happiest man around this world today. Thank you." he said. Yeah ladies and gentlemen, this is my boyfriend. And I plan to stay with him as long as possible. Because I know he wouldn't hurt me. I smiled and nodded. "You mphave made me the happiest woman around the world." I said. He smiled and started leaning in. He kissed my lips. His lips were fighting for dominance and the shy guy hasn't been here for a long while. His tongue has made the way in my lips. First of all I was surprised, but then I relized that this is exactly what a girlfriend and a boyfriend do. I gave up and started kissing him too. After a while I pulled away because I can't let this go further. I looked up to take a look into his eyes. "Um, Erik it's too soon. I don't want to.." I couldn't have finished because he cut me off. "It's fine. We will take this step by step. You will just have to get used for kissing me really soon, because I am sure I won't be able to get enough of you." he said. I've chosen right. I hope. I nodded and put a little kiss on his lips. "What time does the school start tomorrow?" he asked. "At 10:30. Why?" I asked. "Just curious. Let's watch a movie." he said and winked after the first sentence. I've chosen right. I had to.