Perfect Chaos || An Eminem Fanfiction

Chapter 11. My Fault

Ella stirred and opened her eyes only to have to squint because the light made her nauseous.

She groaned then felt Marshall move next to her, looking at him he was awake staring at her.

"Afternoon girl"

"What time is it?" She grunted sitting up But was hit by another wave of nausea and layed back down "I feel like dying"

Marshall chuckled, rolled, leaned down off the bed and rummaged into his bag then sat back up holding pills out to Ella.

She inspected them with a raised eyebrow.

"They'll help with the hangover, they're just Ambian, you'll feel better baby, I promise"

Taking Marshall's word for it she threw back the pills into her mouth and drank water from the bottle on her bedside.

"It's 2pm" he mumbled laying back down next to her pulling her body to his "let the pills work"

"Did we really sleep all day?" Ella groaned again.

"I think we passed out around 6am? I don't know, I can't remember" Marshall shrugged, moving his body with hers.

"How are you so alive right now?"

"Practice" he laughed "Don't forget after a hard night partying I normally have to be ready perform the next night or ready for the studio"

Ella closed her eyes, willing that feeling to pass, waiting for the ambian to make her feel better like he had said.

"Which reminds me, I gotta go to the studio for a few hours with the guys" He said gesturing to the living room "Paul's on my ass coz I been slacking the last few days and his patience has disappeared, I'll come back later tonight though"

"No problem" Ella smiled, starting to feel wonderfull, fuzzy and light.

"Feeling better?"

"Like you wouldn't believe"

Marshall leaned over placing a soft kiss on Ella's lips then leaning back and looking at her.

"I better go wake their asses up and get going so I can come back at a decent hour" he said, eyes still locked on hers while he traced circles over her shoulder, he was still concerned about her "baby make sure you eat... ok?"

"Yeah Marshall I promise" Ella giggled

"Now go before Paul comes and drags you to the studio.

"I'd like to see the mother fucker try!"

Marshall stood up pulling his joggers on, stepping into his nikes then pulling this shirt over his head.

He leaned down placing another, more passionate kiss on Ella's lips and walked out of the room.

Kicking his friends awake telling them to "get their asses up" on the way through.

She heard the front door close and silence Ella drifted off to sleep again, letting the ambian take over.

———

Marshall's phone went off for what felt like the millionth time.

"Yo you gonna answer that shit or turn it off?" Proof snapped, sick of hearing the sound while they were trying to lay tracks.

He looked at the caller id, turned it to silent and shoved it in his pocket.

"Get your bitch ass out of the clouds, we been here for hours man" Denaun said nudging Marshall "Sooner we get this done, sooner you can argue with Kim"

Marshall groaned, she's been calling and texting non stop over the few days he'd been staying at Ella's.

Kim was pissed because her ploy to run off to her mothers with Hailie didn't work, it had her running home scared, only she came home to nothing, because Marshall wasn't there.

He knew avoid the conversation was a bad idea but unlike Kim, Ella was different, she didn't treat him like he was trash, she didn't even get upset when he said he couldn't see her because he was busy.

Basically what Kim turned into world war, Ella made it into a walk in the park.

The more he noticed the difference the more he felt guilty.

Not because of Kim, but because he knew Ella deserved better then this, she deserved all of him alone.

Marshall rubbed his hands over his face.

I really didn't want to risk loosing Hailie, he just needed a bit longer so that he could get custody, he just hoped to Hell Ella hung around for it.

———

Ella awoke to a shaking, she rolled over and glared at the culprit.

"Girl it's 5pm" Sara said quietly "You've been asleep almost all day"

"I felt like death this morning, Marshall gave me something for it and I guess I just fell back asleep after he left for the studio"

Sara sighed and sat down next to her friend in bed.

"I'm worried about you"

Ella sat up and smiled at Sara.

"You really don't have to be"

"We've been partying hard the last few days" Sara said and looked down at her hands "You've just been doing so much"

"It's fine, I'm fine, really I have it under control" Ella said slipping out of bed "Matter of fact I feel great!"

"Now, later you'll have another panic attack and want to block it out, we've been here before, only Marshall is feeding you drugs"

Ella sighed "He doesn't want too, Ive been asking and he hasn't said no"

"Please just be careful"

"I am, I promise, with you, Marshall and D12, I'm safe as houses!"

"Has he told you about Kim yet?"

"No, do you think he knows I know?"

"I doubt it, men ain't that smart, I wish he'd just stop playing you"

"You know he can't help it"

Sara gave Ella a stern look "Just make sure he knows, I mean I love you and Marshall together, but I hate seeing this situation, it's a fucked up triangle"

"But he's not in love with her" Ella said reassuringly, not sure if it was just for Sara or herself too.

"Has he said he love you?" Sara half smiled "I mean it's damn obvious, the mans whipped, I mean shit he's literally been crashing here while he's got a mansion and a wife, just because you asked, but has he said it?"

"No, not yet, but I haven't told him how I feel, I don't want to scare him off, what we have is good"

"Girl, I have a feeling Slim Shady doesn't scare that easily"

Ella laughed and layed back, butterflies rising in her stomach.