Perfect Chaos || An Eminem Fanfiction

Chapter 23. Infinite

"I fucking knew it" A voice said coming from behind Ella.

Startled she spun around coming face to face with Kim.

Here they both were, standing in Marshall's kitchen, Ella in nothing but one of Marshall's T-shirts, bracing herself for the onslaught that is Kimberly Scott Mathers.

Ella closed her eyes, she was sure Kim would start swinging or throwing something at her.

Instead she heard her sigh and the stool move, opening her eyes she saw nothing but Kim sitting at the island bench with a solemn look on her hard face.

"I knew he'd crawl his way back to you eventually" She said quietly, almost as if she was defeated "He was destroyed when you left him"

"I'm sorry, I.. we.."

"Save it Ella, I'm not fucking stupid, he's in love, and it's always been with you, just let me fucking talk Okay?"

Ella nodded, moving closer slowly, so she didn't provoke Kim anymore, taking a seat across from her.

"He use to say your name in his sleep, almost every night, he use to call me by your name whenever we fucked, do you know how it feels to have a man you know doesn't emotionally belong to you? Marshall use to love me once upon a time, but then you came along, but he never loved me the way he loves you, the love he has for you could make to world stand still and it hurts me so much" Kim spoke, tears rolling down her cheeks "Even from that night at the hotel when I first heard him say that he was in love with you, the way he said it, the look in his eyes were different, I knew it was different, I knew I'd lost him for good"

"I did keep away Kim, I promise you we only just started talking again recently"

"You know, One of the many nights he drank himself into a coma after you left him, he told me out of anger that you guys had a miscarriage, he said that he wished that you guys didn't loose the baby and that he hated it because the only woman he wants to have anymore children with was you, and that I ruined that, that I was the one that ruined his life and that sliced though me like a hot blade"

She sat there quietly as the tears rolled down her cheeks again.

"Well I guess since Marshall's got custody, nothing stopping you both from picking up exactly where it ended two years ago" Kim sighed "I never did get his undying love for you and not me, we came up together, went through so damn much, have children together, Marshall and I, then you come in, and he falls head over heels for you, a 19 year old barmaid from fucking Detroit, who has nothing remotely special about her but her stunning looks who's not even old enough to know shit about the world with no ties to his past whatsoever, I could never understand what made you so fucking special to him"

She shifted in her seat and wiped the tears away, and looked back up at Ella.

"And then you left him, so he could see his daughters knowing I wouldn't let him see them because you were together as a couple, and that's when I saw it, and it was like a kick in the gut" She paused to fix herself before continuing "You sacrificed your happiness for him and his daughters, something I've never done, I probably won't ever do, I've never been that selfless"

"I didn't want the girls to miss out seeing their dad, it wasn't fair and I knew I was the one standing in the way, and I felt guilty, no matter how much I love Marshall, I just couldn't do that to those little girls"

"I thank you for that, but I wish you were some selfish bitch that just wanted him for his money, it would make it easier to hate you, this last two years it's been in the back of my mind, what a terrible person I've been, I couldn't even bare to see him happy, I'm a selfish bitch I know, you know he couldn't even get out of bed for weeks when you left?, all he did was fucking cry over you, said you the only woman he's truely really loved, that you were his soul mate, but I was happy he was broken, Because I thought I won, I thought I'd get my Marshall back eventually when he got over you, but he never did" She pauses again as if she was thinking back to a past situation and then the look of guilt briefly swept across her face "And it wasn't until I was told why you actually left, and then I felt like a cunt, but I never told anyone that" Kim wiped her face again and sniffed "I had a feeling when he said it was over weeks ago again, he was different, his whole demeanour changed, like he was alive again, he had a spark to him, someone messaged me last night saying he was with a brunette leaving the club, and I had to come see for myself today, more so to confirm what I already knew, and I was right, he'd found you again"

"I'm sorry Kim" Ella said quietly.

Kim shook her head "I'm the one that ruined your relationship and you're telling me sorry? You are something else Ella, no wonder he's in love with you"

"Baby what's taking you so long?..." Marshall said coming into the kitchen "What the fuck are you doing here Kim?"

"Closure Marshall, and I've got it" Kim said standing "I knew this would happen, it was only a matter of time, I was stupid to pretend that it wouldn't, stupid for thinking you would play fake happy families forever with me, you two are like magnets drawn to each other, don't worry, I'm leaving" She then turned to walk out then stopped "Look after him Ella" with that she left before anything else was said.

"Are you ok? I'm sorry I had no idea she still had a key"

"I'm fine... she litrally sat down and just... talked"

"Well I'll get the locks changed, I don't want that bitch popping in just because she thinks we owe her shit" Marshall said coming up and wrapping his arms around Ella "I just had a call from my Aunt, the girls are dying to see you"

"I can't wait to see them, I bet they're all so big now, I've missed them so much!"

"Their attitude is equally as big" Marshall chuckled "Whit is huge now, so let's go get dressed and we'll take them to lunch, just like old times, what you say?"

"I'd really love that" Ella grinned.