Il suo zaffiro

chapter 14

I almost shouted, "What?" as I shook my head in disbelief. "No way am I pregnant, Sara," I insisted, laughing nervously. But the serious look on her face didn't waver. We used protection, how could this be true?

"You're pregnant, Sapphire. That explains the vomiting, tiredness, headaches," she continued, her calm voice contrasting with the storm of emotions brewing inside me. I placed a trembling hand over my mouth, unable to process her words.

"N-no, Sara, that's not true," I stammered, tears filling my eyes. She tried to comfort me, but how could I calm down when she was telling me something so impossible?

"Shush, Sapphire, we don't want anyone to hear us. Let's talk in my room," she urged gently. I nodded, my legs feeling like lead as I followed her. There was no way I could be pregnant with Logan's baby—we had used protection every time. He wouldn't have risked it, knowing how much he didn't want kids.

Once inside her room, I looked around, wiping away stray tears. "Sara, why didn't you show me your room before? It's beautiful," I cried, trying to distract myself from the anxiety clawing at my chest. She chuckled softly, then guided me to sit down as she closed the door.

"I can't be pregnant; we used protection," I insisted, my voice shaking. Sara's worried gaze met mine as she sat beside me on the bed.

"Were you on the pill?" she asked. I shook my head. "Did you use a condom?" I nodded. "Well, not all condoms are foolproof, darling. Sometimes they can burst, and neither of you might notice," she explained, wiping away my tears with a tissue.

"But I can't be pregnant," I whispered, panic rising in my chest. "Logan doesn't want to have kids. He's going to be so angry with me. What if he tries to hurt me or the baby?" My breathing quickened, and my heart pounded painfully in my chest.

"Sapphire, calm down," Sara said, her voice firm but soothing. "I'll make sure Logan doesn't hurt you, I promise. Just breathe." She guided me through a few deep breaths, and I gradually began to calm down.

"How am I going to hide this pregnancy? Do you think he'll find out?" I asked, fear still gnawing at me.

"You can hide it for a while, but eventually, it will start showing," she replied gently. "We'll figure something out, okay? You might want to ask Logan about getting your own place, or we'll come up with another plan."

"Okay," I whispered, feeling slightly more in control.

"As soon as your bump starts showing, try to avoid Logan as much as possible. I'll think of ways to help you manage this," she said reassuringly. I began playing with my fingers, trying to focus on anything but the anxiety swirling inside me.

"Mom, I can't go through this; I'm scared," I admitted, tears filling my eyes again. Sara's eyes widened in surprise, and she smiled warmly. I hadn't meant to call her "Mom," but it had slipped out in my distress. Before I could apologize, she hugged me tightly.

"That's okay, Sapphire. You can call me anything you want," she said, her voice full of affection. I smiled weakly and hugged her back, feeling a small sense of comfort in her embrace.

"I'll get you a pregnancy test so we can be sure," she said, standing up to leave the room. I nodded, my mind still reeling. Could I really be pregnant? What would Logan say? My thoughts spiraled as I waited for Sara to return.

When she came back, she handed me the box. "Do you know what to do?" she asked gently.

"Pee on it, I guess," I replied, shrugging my shoulders. She nodded and ushered me into the bathroom. I sat down on the toilet, reading the instructions carefully. "Okay, all I have to do is pee on the stick," I muttered to myself as I unwrapped the test and began.

Afterward, I placed the test on the counter and washed my hands, my heart pounding as I waited for the results. My breathing quickened, and I felt the sting of tears behind my eyes.

"Oh no," I gasped when I saw the word "Pregnant" appear on the test. I sank to the floor, tears streaming down my face as the reality of the situation hit me like a ton of bricks.

"Sapphire?" Sara called, hearing my sobs. She opened the door and hurried over to me, her expression full of concern. "Oh, darling, don't cry," she cooed, kneeling beside me.

"If I were pregnant with someone else's baby, it might be easier to bear, but Logan... he doesn't treat me right. He wasn't like this before he left," I cried, and Sara's worried look deepened.

"Remember what we talked about? If you don't want him to know, I'll do everything I can to help you leave, okay?" she reassured me. I nodded, trying to hold on to her words. "Please stop crying, Sapphire. You need to be strong for your baby."

At her words, I took a deep breath and forced myself to calm down. "Thank you so much, Mom. You're the best. You remind me so much of my real mom. Is it okay if I call you 'Mom' all the time?" I asked, wiping away the last of my tears.

"Of course, darling," she said with a warm smile, hugging me tightly.

"I'm going to take a bath," I whispered, pulling back slightly. I noticed that she had tears in her eyes too.

"Why are you crying?" I asked as we left the bathroom.

"I have a son. He lives in New York, and I haven't seen him for so long. I'm afraid he doesn't care about me anymore," she admitted, her voice tinged with sadness.

"No, you're wrong. Maybe your son does care about you. Maybe he lost contact and is trying to find you," I said, trying to cheer her up. She smiled, her expression softening.

After our conversation, I returned to my room and sat down on the bed with a heavy sigh. I couldn't believe I was pregnant. This wasn't how I imagined it happening. I had always thought I'd get married first. And now, Logan, who was planning to get a vasectomy soon, was the father. If he found out, I'd just have to face him and tell him the truth.
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