Criminal minds secrets

A couple years down the line.

Spencer's pov

It has been a tough couple years, but I made it, I could finally say hey look ma, I made it. I had managed to control my mental illness more and I learnt how to cope with my down days and how to talk to people and let them know that I am having a low day. Over the past year me and Luke have gotten closer, we had things in common, which I loved, I also managed to become friends with Morgan, yeah It hurt but now I didn't care,

I sat down on my sofa and looked into an old photo album, I saw pictures of me and my mom from when I was a young child and my mom writing crash next to one picture in particular, then it was pictures of me and Derek, I saw that my mom was keeping the photos I sent her but she asked people to make copies so she could make me a scrapbook, one photo, it was the engagement photos we took in a photo booth, she wrote together forever, I smiled, now a couple years down the line from when we broke up I'm not sad, I'm just happy that the memories happened, the scrapbook still had empty pages meaning that I could make new memories.

I didn't realise I had tears falling out my eyes until Luke walked out of the room we shared when I said to me and Luke had gotten closer, he was now my boyfriend,

"Hey, hey why are you crying," he said as he sat down next to me

" I don't know, I was looking through this scrapbook my mom made, it included pictures of me and her when we were younger then there were some of Derek, and when I noticed the empty pages I realised that when I tried to you know... Kill my self... I didn't die because I still have more chapters and memories to create and write" I said as I showed him pictures of me when I was younger.

"Im so glad you survived spence, I mean who would me and roxy spend everyday with" he said laughing at the end when Roxy, Luke's German Shepherd, came running through.

"Hey girly" Luke said as she jumped on us.

I ticked roxys stomach which got her more excited which resulted in her running around our house (yes we bought a house so we could keep Roxy) like a madwoman she ran up and down the stairs at a giddy pace when she finally calmed down she went into the study and slept, however, me and Luke were in fits of hysteria which resulted in me falling to the floor and then luke because of how much we were laughing when we started to calm down we heard our phones both ding with a message, we looked at each other before helping each other up, it was obviously work. Luke grabbed his phone from the coffee table and looked at his phone,

"it just said come to the Bau office, maybe we can have a movie and games night, we have things to talk about" he said

We both went into the bedroom we shared and put on some clothes since we were both wearing PJs and we said goodbye to roxy and headed to the Bau

When we walked in I saw Garcia roll her eyes luckily I wasn't the only one, years had passed, so many years and she was still so salty about it.

I sat down next to Luke, I was opposite Garcia, Jj came and sat down next to me and soon enough everyone came in filling up the seats.

As the night passed on and Garcia kept making sly remarks, I had gotten used to these but today they had seemed to be annoying Luke a lot.

"Garcia" Luke said

"Yes Newbie" Garcia said in her usual Garcia tone

"whats your problem with spencer" he said

"let me think" she said looking at me "oh yeah, he's selfish, he broke Morgans Heart, more than once, he attempted suicide for attention just like his cutting" she said looking at me, usually I would be hurt it looked as if hotch was going to say something before I looked at Garcia and smiled and laughed

"You really need to grow up, I have, your words they don't hurt me, in fact they make me see what I never want myself to turn into" I said looking her dead in her eye

"youre so pathetic spencer, I won't be surprised if you go home tonight and create some, pretty little new scars on your arms" she said with an evil smirk

"GARCIA" Hotch said "this has gone on for too long, I made you sign the job for the FBI so you wouldn't be Imprissoned, but you're being disrespectful, I'm afraid you're going to move units otherwise I will have to fire you and you'll end up in prison"