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Chapter 3

Gun's pov
"let's hang out this weekend." as I said these words, sing and new's eyes got bigger because of shock. Maybe because in our 2 years of friendship, this could be the first time I asked them out.

"is that really you gun, or another spirit is controlling your body now?". Well good thing they both agreed. Im just not really familiar on what to do during boy's hang out.

"is that P off and Mew? Wow he's so lucky, the prettiest girl in the campus is with him. As expected from a playboy, he can get any girl that he wants." I looked at the direction where they saw Off and it truly was him and another girl.

It's just last week when I saw her doing dirty things with a girl, and now he got a new one, a prettier one.

" Did he ever date a boy before? "
This time New and sing's mouth were wide open and eventually they started laughing. "all we know is that this guy would definitely sleep with anyone as long as it's a SHE. why did you ask anyway? Do you like him?"
They were teasing me as if I would even deny. But I just remained silent.

Off is now one of my goals before I die. I want him to date me, by all means I just want him to agree. I may sound so selfish but that's my one and only request from the person I like, after all he will be my first and last love.

Few days later
Im waiting for him outside his classroom. I was waiting for almost 30 minutes but I don't know whats he doing there all his classmates were leaving.
As I peeped inside the room I saw him there on his chair, sleeping

I slowly get inside the room not wanting him to wake up yet. When I got to be near him, I stared at his beautiful face. This face would be the thing that girls would fight for. But only a girl could stare at this face every morning when they wake up after making love.

This might be an opportunity for me to look at his face up close, I have to stare as much as I could and appreciate this beauty. As I was smiling at his face, he suddenly woke up

I was so shocked and embarrassed that I fell down. He yawned and stared at me and said "you're the weird kid in the cr. And now you're staring at me while sleeping. Are you a stalker?"

" I'm sorry, I I I was going to... Ahh I want tell you something and and... I was stuttering again.

" hey. Relax. I didn't mean to offend you. I'm sorry. What do you want? And there he goes again with that sweet voice. Why does every time he notice me panicking, he always try to calm me down. It's as if he doesnt want me to be afraid or intimidated on him

Okay, this time is for real, it will either make me or break me but I have to tell him something " I love you for a long time now. Will you date me?"

I don't know how many minutes we were staring at each other. But I know I blew it all up.
"I'm not gay. I only date girls. If only you were a girl I might have said yes." he was about to leave.

"no. I I it's okay even if we date as a secret. I just want to try dating with someone I like." but he seemed to be disgusted to what I said.

"you seemed to be desperate. Don't be like this, you looked pathetic. Date another guy, what would be the difference anyway. "

"there would be difference. What if I'll tell you that I will die soon because Im sick or something, will you agree to date me?". He laughed as he pushed me aside.

"I won't  date you even if you die infront of me."

Ouch. That hit me hard. I know, I understand. If only I could live longer than I wouldn't confess to him anyway. I would marry a girl and have a family on my own. But this time is different.

It's okay. I will just keep on forcing him until he agrees. It doesn't matter if he thinks I'm too desperate, cause I really am. I will make him see how persistent I am.

Several days have passed and everyday I always asked him. Sometimes he could be so annoyed that he would push me and it hurts. I couldn't tell him to stop pushing me, he couldn't possibly know what kind of cancer I have, but anyway it's not important since he thinks I'm just playing a joke on him

"you're becoming annoying don't you? Okay fine how about this I will think about what you said, meet me at the bus station at 6pm, I will tell you what's my answer to your undying question. But for now stop following me okay and let me decide first?"

Wait. So he will agree? He will agree right? I mean why would he asked me to wait for him there if he could  just say no immediately. Okay I will give him 5 hours to think. Who knows, after this day, I'll be single no more.

At the bus station

I was waiting for him for 2 hours already. The bus and taxis were already passing in front of me and it's almost getting dark. I could have asked his number, cause he might forgot that we set an appointment. Is he coming?

Then my mother called, "where are you now? It's getting late, I thought your class ends at 4pm?"

"mom I'm just finishing some stuffs here. I'll be home soon." as I was about to put my phone away then I saw him. I saw Off with a girl named Mew riding his car.

I was hurt, maybe he did really forget. Who am I anyway for him to remember that we had an appointment. I ran, I ran after him and called his name as his car was about to leave the school gate. Then I stopped the moment I felt the pain.

It was so painful. But I don't know which is more painful, if my leg or my heart. I couldn't stop crying.. Why are you so mean to me. I would rather be pushed aside and hear you say no, instead of making me feel hopeful that you would agree to become my lover.

I clenched my heart, it's like I'm about to die of being brokenhearted than the cancer that I have