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Chapter 10

Off pov

I'm so mad. How can he be so hard as a rock. If it was other girls, they would even asked me to make love with them, but damn it he's questioning my feelings for him. He's damn stupid. It was him who started this. If he didn't approach me from the start, then none of this would have happened.

I was driving so fast that i realized I have to stop just to calm myself. I don't know anymore. He's just a boy. I can't possible be head over heels with a boy who acts like a girl. We just recently getting to know each other, but how does a person like him, make my world upside down.

Mook: P Off are you okay?

Mook suddenly appeared and was asking with a heavy make up on her face and wearing a sexy outfit. She must be going out to have fun. Well having her here would at least make me forget about that shorty.

Off: hey wanna fuck?

We ended up kissing as soon as I opened the door of my apartment. But honestly, I'm not enjoying this as I used to be, not this time maybe.

She continued kissing and sucking my lips as I responded, but suddenly a vision of Gun's kiss appeared on my head. That kiss was just so light, so innocent and so pure.

She then pushed me and making me sit down on my bed. She began to unbuckle my belt and I could see she was enjoying so much. After all, she's the best in making me feel good. Not even Jane could even beat her when it comes to sex. But a memory of Gun telling me not to flirt with any girls just came into my mind.

Off: stop it. Let go. I'm not in the mood.

Mook: oh? Why not? Not enjoying this?

She was about to kiss me and touch  me again but I reject all of it.

Mook: come on P Off. I even canceled my other plans just for you. You're the one who even invited me. So what's the big deal.

Off: I'm sorry for inviting you. Maybe this isn't a good idea.

Mook: wow P. You suddenly don't like what we're doing? We can even do it for 5 rounds. Don't tell me, someone out there is better than me?

Don't compare Gun to you. He's innocent. He's not someone who will just give his body for fun.

Off: I think you should go.

I pushed her outside the door. Damn it. I'm sure this time, it's him I really want to be with now. I love him, how will I make him believe that.

On saturday
I can't believe I'm here stalking, wearing cap and shades, Gun and Oab on their date. It was even annoying how Gun was waiting for Oab and Oab was just late for 5 minutes.

They went to the cinema and Oab brought 2 tickets and popcorn for the two them. And Gun was smiling so hard. I felt pain in my heart seeing him smiling like that while during our date he was just so silent and barely talked to me.

I bought ticket to and seated behind them. I could hear them talking and Gun was giggling on how cute the characters were. I didn't notice how super cute he is when he smiles. I really want to see him smile for me too. But I guess I'm just a bastard guy who will only make him upset and cry all the time.

After watching the movie, I just walked 5 meters behind them. Then I decided to call him hoping he would answer. Then I was hurt when he looked at his phone and ended the call.

Then I saw them stopped walking. Oab then faced gun and they were talking about something so intimately I could see gun's face became sad. But a few seconds later, I could see on my both eyes how Oab kissed gun's forehead lovingly. And they started to walk again.

And that's how I gave up.

Few days later (at the bar)
Friend1: oi Off youre drunk, don't drink to much or else no one will give us a ride.

Off: the heck, you guys only think about yourself. Will you please just comfort me, I'm broken hearted you know.

Friend2: really? Offjhumpol, getting drunk because your heart was broken by someone? Who's this person, I should congratulate her for breaking this playboy's heart and it serves you right.

They were laughing at me but I don't care. I just want to forget that shorty. I haven't seen him for days but his image keeps on haunting me. I even dreamt of him, walking away from me and saying goodbye. I even invited some girls just to forget you but after 1 round of sex, I then think of you. One girl even complained because I became dizzy and vomited on the middle of doing it with her. But I don't care anymore, the faster I'll forget you, the better.

Just then they were playing a romantic song at the bar and people were dancing in a slow pace, and I couldn't hold my tears so I started sobbing. But my idiot friends laughed more.

Friend3: you know Off, I never seen you this broken since Jane's breakup. You sure are inlove with him.

Off: I messed it all up. I shouldve been more honest. I should've hold on to our relationship. He was already weak from the start, I should be his strength but i messed it all up. Now he can't even look at me into my eyes.

Friend1: so you haven't told her you love her?

Off: no

Friend2: then do it then.

Off: he won't even answer my calls damn it. I texted him multiple times. I just.... I just want to know if he's okay. If he gets home safely....

Friend3: wait a he?

Friend2: here use my phone and call him. Maybe he won't answer again if you're using your number.

I then dialed Guns number, and to my surprise he answered it after calling 2 times.

Off: don't put it down and please here me out.

Gun: P? Is this you? Why is it so noisy? Where are you?

Off: I love you.

Gun: what? Are you drunk?

Off: I said I love you. I love you I love you I love........ you

Gun: okay I get it. Where are you?

Off: Gun I'm..... I'm not confuse anymore....... I love you... Plss give me a chance. I'll become better I promise.... Please...

Gun: p off? P? Hello?

That's all I remembered after that.. I was so sad but at least I was able to tell him how much I love him.

When I woke up the next, I saw Gun sleeping next to me and he was holding my hand.