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Chapter 21

Gun's pov

I think I dreamt of P Off. I dreamt of him being here with me as he was holding my hand and he said that he loves me. I don't know why but it felt so real. I felt him kissing my forehead and then suddenly the pain I felt was gone..

I could still recall the day I was rushed to hospital. I was already preparing in going to school when suddenly I fell down. The pain was so excruciating and it's killing me. My mom came to me and tried helping me to stand up, however, I couldn't do it. And I couldn't walk till then.

Im so worried cause I can't even contact P Off.. I don't even know where my cellphone is. My mom was calling the school saying i will be dropping out. And it's been a week since the last time I saw my friends and P Off..

I miss them especially P. I wonder what is he doing by now. He must have been so worried. I have to contact him cause I don't want to be the reason that he will get distracted with his internship and research. He has to graduate on time. Although.... I'm not even sure if I can still go back to school.

I asked my mom to bring my cellphone with her if ever she goes back home.

When my mom did so, I saw my contacts and he really did call me 50 times with all these messages saying he was so worried. I couldn't help but cry. I miss him so much. I want to see him so badly. But I don't know if he can take it seeing me like this. I look so pathetic.. But.. it would be okay right if I just hear his voice now. I mean I can still make excuses. He doesn't need to know where I am now.

I sent him a text message because I don't want to bother him in whatever he is doing. But to my surprise he called me instead.

Gun: p?

Off: bii? I'm glad you called me.

Gun: p. I'm so sorry I haven't contacted you. I have been ahmm.... My grandfather I mean, he wanted us to go to his place. So I have to stay here for a while hehhee..

Off: you know, not telling me about your condition was not good, but telling a lie is even worst.

Gun: ah what do you mean P?

Off: I knew about it you idiot! I went to the hospital. Did you know you scare me so much? And you didn't even bother to tell me.

Ah so it wasn't just a dream. Oh no. P really knew it. And so I cried hard.

Gun: I'm sorry P.. I just don't know how. We were so happy.. I mean your love gave me so much peace. When I'm with you, I don't have to think of anything that will make me sad.... My life was so meaningless until you came into my life, and I just don't want to ruin it... I was so happy....

Off: hey shh bii. It's okay. Im not mad okay. Well a little but, I don't care of it anymore. And I'm not giving up on you okay. We will finish this battle together.. Ill be forever with you I promise.

Gun: okay P....

Off: don't cry okay.. Ill come visit you on weekend. I miss you so much.

Gun: I miss you more P..

I thank God for giving me P Off who's so strong and understanding. Before I met P, I never wished to live this far. It was okay for me to die now and then. And all I have to do was just fulfill my wishes and then I could die peacefully. But.... I never expected for Off to love me back. And he gave me love so much I could ever dream of.

This time is the most scary part of my life, cause I still don't want to leave my mom and P. But he always make me feel that I could win this over. That I'm stronger than this pain. He makes me believe that I can still do the things I wanted to do. Thank you so much P.. I promise you, that I will fight too.

Off's pov
I hurriedly went to the hospital.. Then I saw Gun's mom who was talking to someone on the phone. I waited for her to finish. Then she ended the call but she was sighing. And then I called her. I brought her midnight snacks.

Gun's mom: thank you so much dear. As much as I want to wake up Gun so that he can see you, but he needs to rest because his chemotherapy will start by tomorrow.

I handed her the first salary for my part-time job. I requested for an advance payment. Although it's not enough, but maybe it can help.

Gun's mom: you are such a very wonderful boy. Gun is so lucky to meet someone like you.

She then touched my face and looked so worried.

Gun's mom: gun told me you are about to graduate soon. I hope that you are still focusing your studies dear. I don't want you to exhaust yourself okay? This is already enough. No more part time jobs okay?

I'm not tired auntie. I can still do my internship, part time job and also finishing my other requirements. I'm a healthy man after all. No need to worry about me.  I really wanted to do this..

At school library
Groupmate1: offjhumpol.. Hello? Youre daydreaming again.

Off: ah I'm sorry.

Groupmate1: did you finish editing the one I assigned to you?

Off: I finished it.

Groupmate1: yeah but not this one yet. I texted you the other day right? You know I thought you already did your part and I submitted it but still they scolded me for not editing this part which is the one I assigned to you.

Off: I'm sorry I'll do it now.

Groupmate1: great cause I don't want to waste ink and bond papers this time... and for heaven sake I also want to finish this hell research.

Off: yeah yeah I'm doing now.

Groupmate2: are you really okay Off? You look so tired?

Off: yeah I'm fine. I just couldn't sleep well last night..

Groupmate2: ahm okay. You'll go with me okay to the publishing store

Off: eh.  I'm sorry I can't go with you later, I have something else to do.

Groupmate1: ahm hello? We all have things to do. Youre even late during our meetings lately and now you're declining? I mean this is the least you could do. Unless you have a good reason..

Off: ahm I can't tonight really. On weekend I promise. Let's go on weekend.

Groupmate1: no more extensions okay.. Seriously Off be serious. If you don't want to graduate please don't bring us down too.

OH great. Now I have to be late on my part time job tonight, it will be a deduction on my salary.

TBC