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Chapter 26

Off's pov
It's been 2 days since I last visited Gun. I wasn't quite sure what happened after Gun shouted at me. He looked so hurt, and I was too. I never meant to break his heart. I only wanted to see him happy and healthy but I failed.

I'm a fool, a jerk, an asshole, a dumb. Why did I do this to someone who's so precious to me. I asked myself, is this a karma for all the bad things I did to all my flings. Or was it really meant for me to hurt people because I'm my father's son.. Maybe I'm just like my father, an asshole.

I've been trying to call Gun but it's always out of line. I also don't want to just show up cause I don't want to see him sad. What am I gonna do...

In school
I don't feel so good. It's like I'm getting dizzy. It seems like people are looking at me.

Look I didn't mean to hurt Gun. Stop glaring at me. You don't know how I feel too...

Girl: p Off? Are you okay?? P...

All I remembered was people started to get close to me and asked me if I was okay. Then everything went black....

I woke up in the clinic. Damn it. I missed my class again. If I keep this up I won't be able to graduate..

Doctor: how are you feeling right now?

Off: I'm fine now. I just.... I'll go home..

Doctor: it's better if you go to the hospital to get a proper check up. Maybe you overworked yourself.

Off: I'm okay. Maybe I'll get better after eating.

Doctor: don't skip meals okay. No matter how busy you are, your health is still a priority. If you damage your health, you won't be able to reach your dreams. So treasure it as early as now.

I guess the doctors right. I've been depriving my health lately. I couldn't eat well.. I just don't have the appetite. I couldn't sleep too because I don't want to miss the moment that maybe.... maybe Gun will answer my call.. Or maybe he'll chat or call me back. I have to be always ready for he might ask me to meet him.
I may have stopped working my part time job but I was never this exhausted.

As I arrived home I ate my dinner.. I can't faint again or else they'll force me to see a doctor..
Then my phone rang. I immediately ran as fast as I could to the room. I hope it's Gun. Please let it be him... Please..

But it wasn't..

Am: jumpol? Are you okay? The school called us this afternoon saying you collapsed. We've been trying to reach you but thank God were able to contact you now..

They must have been so worried about me. What the hell I've been doing with my life. I just can't let them down because of my selfishness.

Off: I'm sorry..

Am: no... I'm sorry... You must be so disappointed in me... I shouldn't have said those words to you. Gun is so important to you. I forgot that helping him is something you must do.. Even if you're just a boyfriend to him, it's never wrong to help him okay? I'm sorry for acting like a selfish person..

As I heard Gun's name. I couldn't control my tears. I cried and sobbed. And P Am must have heard it..

Off: I messed this time. He no longer wants to be with me..

P Am then laughed. She was thinking that something bad must've happened to gun and that's why I was crying. But then she was relieved afterwards.

Am: you know it's okay. Relationships always have ups and downs. Those challenges that youll grow through will make you stronger and it will deepen your relationship. I'm just happy that you are now more mature and it's something I should thank Gun for.

I thank God that at that time P Am called me. She gave me strength for that moment cause I don't even know if I'll ever survive a day without Gun. But I guess I should compose myself again first before asking Gun's forgiveness... I love him and I won't let go.. I love him, and I'll prove it to him..

The next day
As I was busy preparing to go to school. Someone called me and the number was unknown.

It was Gun's mother. I held my breath for a second. And she told me that Gun was gone missing. He's not in the hospital.

Gun's pov
After leaving the hospital at 3am wherein my mother was sleeping soundly. I sneaked out and I successfully did it. I just want to get out of the hospital right now. I want to go somewhere else where nobody will see me.. I rode a taxi and I arrived at my safest haven, my house.. I slept at the couch and waited for the sun to rise.

It felt like I was returned to my old self. Wherein I woke up from the sun rays that hit on my face. I then made my own breakfast. I was using my crutches now since I could no longer use my right leg. I was in severe pain awhile ago or maybe that wasn't a leg pain. Im not sure anymore but I knew that my leg wasn't the only pain I felt at that moment.

I sat on the couch thinking what I should do for the rest of the afternoon. But then I remembered P Off's face. Shit... I really am crazy. I clenched my chest as I feel the pain again... Maybe I should die so that I can no longer feel anything. It just hurt so much and it's so suffocating... I wanna die.. If only after closing my eyes everything will stop then I won't open my eyes again.. And as soon as I was about to close it, the door opened..

I saw the least person I want to see.

Gun: P Off.. What are you doing here.

He was panting so hard. He was in his school uniform. He came nearer and it made me felt so scared. His eyes were like burning. Hes definitely mad.

Gun: how did you... Dont come nearer.. Stay away from me...

He then held my wrist and he grasped it so hard giving me a sensation of pain..

Gun: oww you're hurting me...

Off: WHAT THE HELL GUN. ARE YOU REALLY STUPID? Who in the right mind would leave the hospital when they're sick. You really want to die that much?

Gun: yes I want to die.. I don't want to get treated. I won't get better anyway.. I don't want to live anymore..

I was already crying.. I couldn't look at him.... I'm afraid to see his eyes. I'm afraid that he might tell me he no longer loves me.

Off: if you're mad at me. Then punch me. Do it... Slap me so hard... Just don't do this.... Don't involve your mom... He's fucking worried about you...

He was also crying. I should hate him right? But why can't I do it... Why do I still love him so much..

Off: if you really want to end your life now, then I'll do the same. I'll follow you wherever you go, because I love you...

Gun: you won't... Look. My hair is falling off. I'll look ugly. And.... and after my surgery, I will only have 1 leg left. I wont be the same Gun. I won't be able to go back to my old self again...

Off: I don't care. I will still love you and care for you... Just live... Don't ever feel that you're less worthy just because you have illness. To me... , youll always be the most beautiful and kindhearted person I've ever met.

He hugged me so tightly.. And I felt safe and warm again.. He said sorry a million times while hugging me. I hugged him back too. I miss him so much. It's only days since we fought but it felt like forever.

He then stared me in my eyes and wiped my tears away. He didn't say anything. He just kissed my forehead, my eyes, my nose... I waited for him to kiss my lips too..

Off: I love you Gun.. No more promises for now. I don't want to think what will happen in the future. But all I know is that I love you so much at this moment...

TBC

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