Destined

Sixty Six

You've heard of the seven deadly sins, haven't you? Sloth, Gluttony, Greed, Envy, Pride, Wrath and Lust. Well these seven little bastards have been my best friends for almost a month now. My compadres. And. I. Hate them. I hate them so much.

Yes, it'd been three weeks since I walked out on Vince. Since I left the man I love on his knees, crying for me, begging me not to leave him. I must be one hell of a heartless bitch, huh? It's alright, you can say it. I know I am. I woke up each morning in my new apartment and told myself that everyday. Kristina Anna-Marie Sanders, you are a heartless bitch. I'd also gotten up close and personal with my seven new friends.

Sloth. I didn't do anything. I woke up, stared at pictures on my phone of Vince, and cried. I cried and I cried and I cried, until my head hurt so bad, and my eyes had almost swollen shut. And then, if I was in a good mood, if I can call it good, I actually showered. But then I came back to bed and cried. Sometimes, I cried because of Jonah. Then Talia. Then Roger. Then Celine. Then Alya. I felt like the list went on. So many people whose lives had changed or ended, and not for the better.

Don't worry, my days of sloth were almost over. After I dropped out of university and broke up with Vince, I went back home, stayed with Aunt Shar for literally three days and took a job at her relief homes. I was starting the following week, so hence the new apartment, because it's in another town, Richmond, and I needed a place to stay close to my new work place. So goodbye friend number one.

Gluttony. Well, let's just say I'd been over indulgent in my tastes those days. See those pizza boxes on the floor? Well, yeah, that's pretty much all I'd been eating. Pizza and a variety of sweets. I'd eat until I was so stuffed, until there was no room for more, and yet I forced more. I did it because, once I got so uncomfortably full, I couldn't do anything but sleep. That meant I didn't have to think about my break up. It awarded me a moment of peace. Until I woke up again. But with my new job, I'd have other things to occupy my mind, so goodbye friend number two.

Greed. No one, besides my mother and Aunt Shar, knew where I was. Like I said, I dropped out of uni and left. Literally disappeared. They'd been calling and texting and whatever but I just muted my phone, sometimes I kept it off. But then the urge to see Vince's face overwhelmed me so I'd turn it back on. Not to mention my mother's only condition when allowing me to live in Richmond was that I called every night.

I understand it was selfish of me, they were all very worried about me. I didn't seem to care when I just packed up and left. I didn't exactly pack up anyway, most of my stuff was still in my room at the boarding house but I had another two weeks before it was sold off to create room for a new housemate. Those were the rules. I'd call my friends soon. So goodbye friend number three.

As for my other four friends, well, we were stuck together a bit longer. My phone still alerted me when news about Charles Thornton/Vincent Delavigne hit the news. He'd just announced his new book, Upheaval. The one about Kira, about me, would be out in June. I was envious of the people who'd get to work with him on that book. The fact that he'd moved on with his life, filled me with wrath. And of course, I was still insanely attracted to, and in love with the man, herein lay my lust problem. And I was too full of pride to admit that I didn't handle the situation well.

Wow, I'm so sorry. You don't really know what happened, do you? Let me go back a few weeks. To the night I left Vince with Reese. Did you guess who I found waiting for me?

Three weeks ago....

There's a certain type of person you're never happy to see no matter the circumstances. No matter what, this person is associated with one bad memory. Or maybe it's his or her job to bring around bad news. And as much as you're taught not to shoot the messenger, sometimes it can't be helped.