Let's Spell, Us (Us, Book One Completed)

Chapter Twenty-One

The next day! Last day of meeting new partners, last day of stay at Canada, last day of everything. I somehow feel awkward around Roran after what happened, I just talk to him when needed for the schedule then after nothing follows. Here we go again just like what happened the last time. I seemed trying Lana not to noticed it but I fail it though,

"Ahem!" Lana getting my attention, "You seemed like your avoiding, Roran?" Lana asked,

"What do you mean?" I defensively asked,

"Cause from what I remember on the park you just shifted your mood to this kill joy vibe and got decided to return in the hotel because you feel want to rest?" Lana stated straight. I gathered all my words in my head to tell her what had actually happened but my head always end up messing,

"Okay! Something had actually happened that I don't know how and what to say it." I paused, "At the park yesterday, Roran just..." I paused still stuttering,

"What?" Lana said trying to make me finish the whole line that I've struggled to form inside my head,

"Roran, just... kissed me!"

"Oh my gosh! He didn't!" Lana interrupt and left a shocked reaction on her face,

"But it's not just like that, while he was kissing me Adam suddenly appeared on my head and there I feel so guilty for myself why did I just let that happen." I said dropping myself at the bed and sigh.

"I don't know anything about that situation but I can feel you." Lana said and lay next to me at bed, "I know you've already moved on about Adam, but remember is he the guy that your heart beats for?" Lana asked staring at the ceiling,

Then I remember from yesterday what I felt while Roran was kissing me, my heart beats so fast.

"So! What have you felt while you and Roran kiss?" Lana asked changing her position and now facing at me while her hands both under her chin.

"My heart beats so fast?" My eyebrows meet and feel so awkward talking this things with Lana.

"There's this quote I always bring with me that my grandma told me the moment I turned twenty, she said, "Your head is a form of wide imagination, it's just make you confused and over think but if you follow what your heart beats for, everything you wanted will fall into its places."

After Lana said I realized that her grandma was right, maybe because I was over thinking about Adam in my entire life it just left me always confused and imagined that were gonna be okay in the near future but what I did not noticed and understand that my heart beats for is Roran, I just forced myself to much to something I can't have. The moment that I meet Roran, everything in my life is so calm and gentle, we might argue at things but he understands me and I understand him too. Roran made me realized that I have to enjoy my life and value the things that counts.