The Heart of A Killer.

36.

Chapter 36 | 3 1/2 months later...

O R L A N D O | G O N Z A L O

"So maybe if we get an exercise ball her back won't hurt so much. 30 minutes stretching on the ball every other day and she should be fine." Dr.Ridge smiled

"I'm happy to have you as a patient again. You went from being a traumatized woman to a soon to be a mother. I'm truly proud of this upcoming moment." She held Savay's stomach in her hand then gave me a hug.

I could see Savay's emotions unfolding as she rubbed her stomach with a wide smile never leaving her face. "So how you taking everything?" She mumbled

I signed, "Good. I just hope everything goes as planned."

She giggled, "What plan? all we need to do is support one another with the help of your mother for a few pointers then we will be just fine."

I nodded kissing her hand. I handed her a paper towel to wipe the gel away as I grabbed her coat. "Do you want to put the wedding on hold or..?"

"I don't know. I want to fit my dress but I think it would be cute to have a baby bump while getting married."

We shared a quick laugh while trying to decide which one would be better. "Maybe if we ask my mom. She's great with situations like this."

She nodded as I thought about something, "I just realized, you never met my sister."

She looked in confusion until she made an unreadable expression, "You're right. Why is that?"

"I don't know. She really is slipping my mind honestly."

She perked her lips at me as I laughed softly. She caressed my face and I looked at her weirdly.

"What are you doing?"

"Showing affection to your face."

"& why are you doing that?"

"Because I love you." I huffed knowing she was about to start crying. She's been doing this for the past few days and it's starting to become a piss-off.

"Ok, let's get you home."

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S A V A Y | S U A R E Z

"I'll call you later," I screamed to Gina as I got in the house. We've been shopping literally all day and I'm tired and hungry as one could be. It was 12 in the morning and I know Orlando is about to be pissed. He can't blame me, it's Walmart's fault they're opened for 24 hours. I turned on the light to see him laid out on the couch. I instantly gagged from the smell of liquor and weed. I kicked the sofa as he groaned.

"Girl what?"

"Don't girl what me. What the hell are you doing?"

"Well, I was sleeping until you woke me up." He looked up at me and his eyes were bloodshot red. He rolled his eyes getting up bumping past me.

"What is your problem? You've never acted like this before."

He groaned, "Savay. Do me a favor. Please shut up."

I scrunched my face while taking off my shoes. "Who the fuc-

"You, I'm talking to you."

"Why are you talking to me like this?"

"Because all you do is fucking nag!, You don't do shit but lay around all day, complaining or begging some damn body."

"You mean me asking you to go look at cribs or toys for our baby? That's all I ever asked you to do since I got pregnant." I felt myself starting to have a panic attack. I don't know where all this animosity came from, and I don't know why it's slowly scaring me.

"Well good thing the baby is a problem huh?"

I stopped my movement as I turned to see him sitting on the step lighting up another blunt. "What are you trying to say?"

He walked over to me laughing. When he was about an inch away from my face, he blew smoke into it. I swayed my hand away as tears became to creep up in the way. He smirked, "What do you think I'm saying?, I don't want a baby by you. I don't even know why I asked you to marry me."

"This not you talking. This has to be the liquor."

He shook his head, "Ever heard the saying, when one drinks... the truth always unfold? Yeah, that's what this is here madam. I'm completely serious, from the bottom of this heart you thought you had. I don't love you, and I never did. Take it and deal with it."

I opened my mouth as tears streamed down my face like a waterfall, "Quit with the fucking tears Savay, no one cares."

My feet ran upstairs to the guest room slamming it shut. I laid there becoming so clueless about what the hell just happened. What did I do wrong? Was it something I said? We were fine before I left, now he becomes this complete dick in just a few hours?

I think about all the times my Dad made slick comments on him being a Gonzalo. How you could never trust them, let alone love them. & here I am, crying over one. Stupid me huh? He just told me he didn't want to have our baby or marry me. Was this all a game? A joke for him?

I pushed my face into the pillow and cried louder. I've been through hell just to finally have some peace in my life... and he fucks it up with just a few sentences. Ain't that about a bitch. His footsteps travel up here and I hear a sigh of relief, "Finally, some peace and fucking quiet."

I sniff low enough so he won't hear it and make things worst. It pisses me off how I can't even be mad, just hurt. He made me this way, sensitive. I hate it, I can't be angry like I want to. But trust me, it's eventually going to come back.

That's final. Fuck a Gonzalo. Fuck him, I'm back on my bullshit. Just wait on it.

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Don't kill me! 😭 But I had to make a twist to it. It will be all worth it, in the end, trust me ☺️