I wake up a few minutes later and i'm in a hospital
i look around and no ones in the room
i press a button that calls the nurse and soon after she comes in
"Hi honey how are you feeling?" she asks
"good i guess. what happened to me"
"you passed out a few hours ago."
"i-is anyone here"
"what do you mean?"
"for me, is anyone here for me."
"well-"
"of course not. no one cares about me. not my parents not my boyfriend no one"
"that's not true many people care about you. you didn't let me finish. i was going to say well your cousin came but we didn't know how long you would be unconscious for so we sent him home. it's nighttime"
"what time?"
"it's 11 p.m he was going to stay all night until you woke up but he needed to go home for school the next morning"
"oh can you call him and tell him i'm awake"
"of course. well i'm glad you're feeling better you'll be able to go home tomorrow but for tonight just get some rest"
"thank you" i say and she nods leaving the room afterwards
i find my phone on the table next to me and i go into messages
i see i have a message from Zach and i read it
Z- omg kylie! i heard you passed out at the competition
K- like you care
Z- omg you're awake
K- stop saying omg. why the fuck didn't you come to the competition i know you didn't have a date
Z- i just couldn't come
K- whatever, you know i only passed out because i was so nervous since you weren't there
Z- i'm sorry
K- sure. i needed you today Zach and you weren't there
Z- it was just a competition you don't need me for that
K- my boyfriend called me a slut and worthless i needed to talk to my best friend and be supported
Z- what did Jonah call you
K- i'm not typing it again you know what i wrote
Z- why did he say that
K- he thought i was cheating on him with Daniel
Z- but he's your cousin
K- exactly
Z- are you guys still dating
K- yeah i don't know how to break up with him he'll probably do something to me
Z- you shouldn't be afraid of your boyfriend
K- i'm not i just know how he is. anyways i'm tired so i'm going to sleep are we friends again
Z- of course we are. goodnight and remember i love you and you're my best friend forever
K- goodnight
i smile to myself and text Jonah
K- i know you're very upset with me about this morning but i wanted to let you know that I passed out at my math competition today and i really wish you were here with me at the hospital. i know you don't care about what happens to me since i'm such a worthless slut but anyways goodnight and i still love you besides the fact you think i'm cheating on you with my fucking cousin
as a surprise to me he actually responds back
J- why did you pass out?
K- the doctors said from stress they don't know what i was stressed about but i know
i know they didn't say that but he deserves to have some guilt
J- what were you stressed about
K- hmm maybe thinking about how my boyfriend hates me and finds me worthless. or maybe how ive never cheated on you before but you've cheated on me. and somehow i'm the slut.
oh yeah after 8 months of us dating Jonah cheated on me with some random girl but of course i stayed with him cause i'm a fucking idiot that gives this boy like a million chances and gets hurt every single time
J- baby don't talk about that
K- why can't i. if you can call me a slut and worthless i'm allowed to bring that up
J- i've apologized
K- you still cheated on me. do you know how sad that was. finding you two together on our anniversary when i was supposed to be the one in that bed with you
J- babe i said sorry so many times. i was stupid that day i don't know what i was thinking
K- you weren't thinking. but whatever that's in the past. i just can't believe what happened this morning.
J- i didn't mean what i said
K- then why did you.
J- i don't know baby i have problems i get angry easily and i hurt people i love. i'm so sorry
K- do you really think i'm worthless
J- no no no you're not you're not at all. you're worth everything to me and i love you. and you're not a slut or a bitch or a baby for crying. i was so mean to you you had a right to cry. i was being the bitch and i was so wrong to call you a slut. i know he's just your cousin but i'm just so scared i'm going to lose you to another guy
K- do you love me
J- yes i love you forever thats why i was so extra about your cousin. when i heard you say i love you and i saw it had a heart i was so hurt so i overreacted.
K- i'm sorry i hurt you
J- it's okay baby i accept your apology can i go to the hospital tomorrow and see you
K- please do i need people. no one was here when i woke up and i was heartbroken
J- if i knew you passed out i would've been there and would have stayed forever until you woke up
K- i love you so much
J- i love you more now goodnight baby
K- goodnight
i yawn and put my phone down
today's been a long day and i need to sleep
i feel bad that i scared him and i kind of understand why he got so upset
he didn't have to call me what he did but he had all the right to be upset with me
maybe i'm the bad girlfriend and he's not the bad boyfriend like everyone says
at least he accepted my apology
i love him and im happy he didn't break up with me cause i definitely wasn't going to break up with him
