Broken

20. I Love You

Brooklyn

I can't believe he just left like that. But also I could, I mean he's Justin. I knew something was wrong when I waked in his room, he just felt off for some reason and when he saw his mother I knew she was it, I don't think he knew she was coming, because when he saw her it's like I was looking at a ghost , he just blanked out from then on. He only spoke when spoken too and avoided all conversation with his mother.

I don't understand why he was so upset? He told me they had a great relationship, why did he lie to me? "I'm really sorry about this, I'll go talk to him." His mother gets up but I stop her, that's only gonna make him more upset. "No I'll go, I know where to find him." I smile at her and she just nods. I grab my keys and get in my car, I drive to where I was almost certain he'd be.

I walk inside the music library and I see Justin sitting at the piano, he was quietly singing a song. "Mommy you were always somewhere, and daddy I lived out of town, so tell me, how could I ever be normal somehow? You tell me this is for the best, so tell me why I am I in tears?" I watched him as he quietly sung the song and the soft tears that poured down his face and it just broke my heart. Justin needed help too. He tried to hide it, but he needed it. Just like I had. I'm going to help him. Just like he had helped me.

"So far away and now I just need you here" his voice was cracking as he sung that line of the song. Eventually he just put his head on the piano and started crying. Watching him just broke my heart. I slowly slide in next to him and wrap my arms around him. "Shh Justin it's ok." I put my head on his shoulders and just let him cry. "It's not ok, nothing's ever fine. I'm never able To be happy." He lightly sobs and I shake my head. "Justin you're gonna be ok." I wipe the tears off his face.

"It's not fair, she can't do this to me." He shakes his head and I know he was referring to his mother when he said 'she'. "She can't come back and say this. She can't treat us like we're normal people that she just knows. We're her kids. She treats us like we're options, we should be priorities" He says. "I'm not someone she can send off and then never talk to me and come to me later and say she's pregnant and married." He was getting angrier by the minute. "It's not fair, she can't do this. She's the reason I'm a screw up." Justin runs his fingers through his hair.

"Justin, listen to me." I turn his head towards me. "you're definitely not a screw up. You're a blessing." I look into his eyes and he shakes his head. "If I was such a blessing, then why did my mom ship me off? She shipped me off as if she didn't care about me and my siblings." He put his head in his hands and lightly sobs again. "Justin she did what was best for you. If she didn't, you would have been in the same mess you were then now. No change would have been made." I try to get him to look at me but he wouldn't.

"Brooklyn, Maybe there was a reason I was like that, an still is. Maybe that's my destiny. No one cares about me or my actions. Everyone treats me like some charity case." Justin sounded so sad and fragile and it broke me. I've never seen Justin so down and broken, it just made me wanted to rip my heart out. "Justin that's not true, you wanna know something." I say directly looking him in the eyes. "I care about you. You mean everything to me, you may not be glad, you had to move out here, but I am." I say and that caught his attention, he shyly smiles and I take that as an opportunity to continue.

"You're one of the best things that's ever happened to me. You've made me the happiest I've ever been , just in a matter of a few months. Do you understand that? I care about you, I love you." Shit. That just came out. I wanted to tell Justin that I loved him in a more romantic way, but it's too late now. "Y-You love me?" Justin's asks and I nod my head with a smile. "Yes Justin. I'm completely without a doubt in love with you. I love you more than anything and anyone right now." Justin just stares at me with his eyes wide. Damnit I knew it wasn't the right time. He probably thinks I'm some freaky stalker chick.