𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 [𝐣𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐱]

十二

"I love you"...

love...its a strong word. felix kept repeating what jisung said in his head, it was as if everything stopped. all good feelings he felt for jisung were bottled up for so long because of that one day two months ago, but he never stopped thinking about him. every day he imagined the older holding him, cuddling, holding hands; kissing him. oh how much he missed those lips, even if he felt them only once, he always took time to admire those plump pink lips; and now he was just in front of him, he could tell him everything, but something at the back of his head was against that idea. he could never like you. he is just like minho, he will leave you. you only have me. it was that devilish voice that kept him from telling jisung just how much he missed him. what he did know was that jisung saw it all, he already knew exactly what was going inside youngers head and he wanted to help him.

"from day one I knew you were the one, the only one I could ever love that way. I thought it was minho for a while, and I thought you were the same as him, the next person to tickle that spark inside of me...but no. I loved minho quite a lot, and you are nowhere near him" jisung stopped talking and the voice went off again. see? I told you he could never love you.
"you shouldn't even be compared. the love I feel for you is on a whole another level. I can proudly say you are the love of my life Lee felix, and I think you are absolutely perfect. every single part of you. and I want to make you see it for yourself." that wasnt what felix was expecting at all. he suddenly moved his gaze from his lap to jisungs face and he could see the way his still red eyes sparkled...it made him feel all sort of ways and he knew voice was just about to drop some snarky comment on how he didnt deserve to be loved, but what if he was? so he just decided to cut off the voice with connecting his lips with jisungs. it felt like he was in heaven. he felt relieved. the kiss was slow and full of love.

when they finally parted, because they needed air duh, jisung looked at him with sincere eyes. "will you accompany me on the trip called make Lee felix realize he is the most beautiful person in the universe?" felix smiled "and possibly give me the honor of calling you my boyfriend?" with that he was caught off guard, but soon regained himself. "I may have to think about that for a while" suddenly jisungs smile dropped. "ah..I...understand " he suddenly looked sad, but that made felix burst into laughter. he grabbed jisungs cheeks smashing their lips together. "of course I will be your boyfriend, I love you"

love love love love love love love love love

thats how one skater boy with a bad habit of doing drugs turned life of another sickly skinny boy around, eliminating his eating disorder and taking him all to himself. but, is it going to last? lets hope it does

xue