Enemy's Love

Chapter 15: Real Confession

After their intimate sex, Ling asked Frank to excuse herself, fix herself when Frank handed to her a brown blanket, in case she's getting cold.

Ling then went outside when she realizes it is already dawn. Then she feels the ambience is like Great Wall of China when the walls along with the floors are filled with bricks, then she saw a long chair facing the tip of the wall then she realize that she is now situated at the top of the wall surrounding the kingdom.

Then she seated and covered her body with blanket provided to her by Frank beforehand. Then she look at the stars in the skies as it is in the middle of midnight and morning, when the skies transform from dark to grey. Then in peaceful silence, she feel the breeze of the air that caresses her body so cold. Then she feel relieved that runs through her body and with romantic excitement as she recall that Frank finally gets her. She wondered to herself that she feels happy instead of hating him more for what he did, instead, she gets proud of having him finally have sex with her.

She smiled as she still look at the stars and told herself that no matter what will happen, at least she manifest her love towards Frank through having sex with him, despite she knows that Frank may not pursue her. She indeed selflessly feel in love with him without compensating a real love towards her.

After an hour of reflection, without her knowing, Frank is standing at the back, in a far distance from her, also doing his reflection.

While Ling still doing her reflection, she heard a footstep from her back and headed towards where she seated. Then she saw it was Frank who seated beside her, at a not to far distance, in the right corner of the chair. Ling turn back and smiled at Frank, then she face front looking at the sky again.

Frank remains quiet when Ling cannot control herself but rather tell the whole thing about her feelings towards Frank before it is too late for them, despite she feels that after all, it is an unrequited love.

"You know what, since the first time I saw you, I get easily attracted towards you, especially your smile. But when you attempt to sexually harrass me, I get embarrassed at myself, as I get naked for the first time in that way. That makes me get disappointed and hated you instead. Then I meet Simon. When I first saw Simon, I saw him as a friend whom I can have someone to talk to. But he ended up falling in love with me and pursued me. But as I get along with Simon, I wish it was you whom I can talk to. But that wish was covered by hating you more. I wish if you could be Simon, but I realize you are different. Simon takes care of me like what every woman wished to be cared.  But to me, as I received that care, I missed the other side of things. I missed the Frank annoying me, harrassed me, being naughty towards me, that Frank that is bullsh*t in front of me. I miss that Frank arguing with me that resulted to a fight. I miss that Frank who takes advances with me. I don't know why I have this kind of feeling. I wish I could love Simon, because he deserves to be loved, but my heart tells me differently. Instead, I ended myself still loving you despite I ended myself at the losing end. I see the instability in you Frank especially that I saw you having a sex with another girl and that you feel proud you looked at me while beside that girl.  Now that I also know that you have an affair with the Empress, I find it even more hopeless for you Frank, but still I surrender myself to you because I love you that much.

Before that sexual thing happened, I tell myself not to let you get successful in your mission. I rather have myself being killed by my father, which I will really mean to do Frank. I wish I could now die so that I will not get hurt anymore, especially now that I will be get used to kill my own Father. I love you Frank but am decided to instead have myself now leave in this world for me not to get hurt again.

But before I gonna die Frank, at least you are the first to sexually loses my virginity Frank. That is the greatest gift you give to me before I will die.

Frank is still speechless as Ling have her sigh of relief as she wished to keep calm of herself despite of wanting to cry. But she remain calm while looking at Frank, then she smiled showing to Frank that after all the feeling of rejection, she will be fine.

When Frank saw Ling smiled, he starts to cry, seemingly guilty of cannot bear himself to face Ling after all the betrayal he do towards her, especially now that he is first time to her and now that she confess her love to him before him towards her.

"Ling, after all the good things you said towards me, I am humbly saying sorry that I hurt you that much, that I am too coward to show you what I really feel. At first, I get sexually attracted towards girls I like and I ended up having sex with them. I really get sexually attracted towards you. But you manifest some kind of courage not to give in which makes me love you instead of treating you that way. I ended up myself loving you Ling and gets jealous everytime I saw you together with Simon. I wish I could be Simon so that you will show sweetness towards me, but I see you getting tougher and hating me more. But I still do love you Ling and wish that one day, we will be ok and that I will pursue you. But Simon said he will pursue you, which I realize he is more deserving for you than me, so I give up. I tried myself to move on and go back again to what I have been used to, to have sex with another girl. As I do it for myself, I ended up hurting myself even more and that Simon is really more deserving for you. Then I saw you and Simon going inside the room. After that I fight with Simon, thinking that Simon already have you. I move on and fix myself, but Simon sees it differently. He said that he feels you still like me. And that he gives way for me to pursue you and even to be with you. After all, I still think that Simon deserves you more, but still I hurtfully love you more.

Am sorry Ling, am sorry for all the things I've done to you. Until now I am still ashame of myself that I am your first despite I do not deserve that kind of reward from a decent girl like you. I am still guilty of my faults that I cannot straightly look at you, but still I wish to have you more each day.

That wealth and power is my priority at first, but when I have you and Simon, I realize that there is something more that will bring happiness to people, and that is love and care. I love you Ling but I don't know how to start as I am not deserving to receive that kind of love from you."

Frank still have his tears fallen.

Ling pauses for a while, then smiled towards Frank and said "Then be the man that is deserving for me Frank."

Because of what she said, Frank finds his strength to agree to her, then he smiled towards her, go near beside her and hug her so tightly.