Adventures of The Sad, Broken, and Happy (Hobbit Fan Fiction)

Chapter 29 Explanation

Okay first off I must give credit to Taylor Swifts I knew you were trouble music video which I shamelessly took some lines from. Also please check out my friend Alex's and my YouTube channel! We are called Sardonic Soul Sisters!

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Allie
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"Allie I'm so glad your up. I'm glad your awake I'm glad your heart is beating!" Grace exclaims. I stare blankly at her. No words come to mind of what to say. Graces smile falls and she bites her lip. "Okay okay this is okay. You don't have to talk. You don't have to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. Just nod yes or no to me. Do you want to let the company visit you?" I nod no. I don't want them to see me like this. Well granted they already have but right now I don't have the energy to act okay. And I don't want to act okay. I'm not okay and I shouldn't have to act like I am. "Okay Allie I'll tell them. But Oin has to come in and check on you." I nod no rapidly and wave my hands to amplify the effect. "Allie he needs to make sure your okay." I shake my head no again and pull up the covers on the bed up to my chin. Grace frowns and sighs deeply. "Alright Allie I understand I'll tell Oin to hold off. I'm gonna a get you something to eat." Grace gets up and walks towards the door pausing just as she grabs the handle she turns her head to look at me. "Allie just know I'll always be there to pick up the pieces and put you back together even if I'm not there to prevent the breaking."

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Emily
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"Is she awake?" I jump up and ask Grace as soon as she enters our room.

"Yes but she wishes to not be seen by any of the company at the moment," Grace replies while grabbing an apple.

"So we can't?" Alex asks.

"No I'm sorry," Grace shakes her head.

"But we are her friends," Bilbo protests.

"Her friends should respect her wishes," Grace snaps.

"But she has experienced some extremely thorough trauma she needs us!" I exclaims.

"Right now she needs time to think," Grace says and walks out. Fuming I sit down on the bed and hit a pillow.

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Allie
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Grace re-entered minutes later and set an apple on the bedside table next to the bag of coins Kili left.

"Okay Allie you better eat this. I know you've never been the one not to eat after trauma but I don't really know how you deal with trauma that much so I could be wrong. So just eat and keep breathing. That's all I need you to do. Eat and be alive. Think you can do it?" I nod yes. "Good but I just have one question and you don't have to answer it. Do you remember what happened?"

I go to nod yes but pause. I know but.... I think..I think when its all over it just comes back in flashes. Its like a kaleidoscope of memories. But it just all comes back. I don't realize it does..no but when I concentrate its there.  So I nod hesitantly.

"Good that's good. So you remember everything you haven't forgotten your name or mine?" I nod no. "Okay I'm sorry but I have to ask. Why did you let yourself be tormented by him? Weren't you wary of him at first because he was a big folk?' Looking down in my lap I fold my hands and bite my lip.

I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. That I would end up hurt and broken. It wasn't anything he said or anything he did it was the feeling that came along with it. I knew he was different, bad maybe, but I just thought how could the devil be pulling you towards someone who look so much like an angel when he smiles at you. Maybe he knew that I was enchanted when he saw me. Maybe he knew I was desperate for love. Though the worst part of it wasn't losing my trust in love, the permanent scars visible and invisible, no it was losing me.