Adventures of The Sad, Broken, and Happy (Hobbit Fan Fiction)

Chapter 31 Mourning then Falling

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Alex
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"EMILY NOOOO," Allie screeches then runs the jump of the edge but Thorin catches her around the waist.

"Are you mad?" Thorin growls.

"I can save her!" Allie snaps struggling in his grip.

"Allie your sorrow will weigh you down you know that," Grace mutters tears clouding her eyes and the eyes of everyone else but Dwalin and Thorin. Dwalin is blinking a lot though so he's upset. Thorin just looks emotionless.

"NOOO EMILY! She can't be gone. She can't she can't she can't! Emily Emily....EMILY," Allie wails falling to her knees when Thorin releases his grip around her waist.

"Why?" Sam whispers falling to her knees tears running down her face.

"No," Fili whispers looking down his face is of pure heartbreak.

"She's gone," I whisper to myself tears falling down my cheeks. Grace stands completely still not saying anything but tears slowly stain her cheeks.

"Come on let's get into the cave," Dwalin mumbles. Grace picks Allie up and takes her in. Fili and Sam help each other in to promptly break down again. I just walk in and sit in a corner.
"It looks safe enough."

"Search to the back, caves in the mountain are seldom unoccupied," Thorin orders. Dwalin searches further into the cave and comes back.

"There's nothing here," Dwalin reports.

"Right then, let's get a fire started," Gloin utters dumping some wood on the cave floor.

"Emily loved fires," Allie sobs shoving her face into her knees.

"No. No fires. Not in this place. Get some sleep, we start at first light," Thorin says reaching to touch Allies shoulder but stops and sets up his bedroll.

"We were to wait in the mountains until Gandalf joined us. That was the plan. And we should have ceremony for little Emily," Balin points out.

"Plans change. Bofur, take the first watch," Thorin shrugs. He really didn't need to say that none of us were gonna get any sleep tonight. I sit next to Allie and whatever it hits me.

Emily is dead.

I'll never see her again.

I won't get to see her laugh.

Smile.

Or see her eyes light up in amazement at watching a fire ever again. A wave of sadness and failure hits me and I choke. This feeling of despair and loss fills me just like all the times before.

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Sam
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She wasn't dead no. Not yet at least. I couldn't feel any pain from her either which means she fell all the way. But I know she's not dead...yet.

"She's not dead," I whisper to Fili.

"I know but that's what scares me. Any time now we'll feel when she dies," Fili replies.

"I know. The scariest part is that I know she's down there...busted up and dying."

"We can't do anything."

"That's what kills me," I admit. "I feel like I've lost my smile."

"My laugh."

"My best friend."

"My soulmate."

"My everything," we say in unison.

"I just wish I could have told her that her life was my life's best part," I murmur and bury my face on my hands.