i still couldn't believe it. sebastian and i are now looking at each other. i couldn't even talk, i don't even know how to start? it's a been a month and i've missed him. i do.
Maybe I came on too strong
Maybe I waited too long
Maybe I played my cards wrong
Oh, just a little bit wrong
Baby I apologize for it
without any talk or whatsoever. i just moved my face away from him. feeling the wind, the freshness of the place. as i close my eyes, he asked me. "what happened to us?" i opened my eyes and i looked at him. i scoffs and looked down, "we got lost." i mumbled.
I could fall, or I could fly
Here in your aeroplane
And I could live, I could die
Hanging on the words you say
And I've been known to give my all
And jumping in harder than
Ten thousand rocks on the lake
"i want you back. i really do, what happened back last month was- we could just go to the start again, baby." when i heard that word, i don't know. i just felt weakness all over my body. i do missed him but is it really good if we come back?
So don't call me baby
Unless you mean it
Don't tell me you need me
If you don't believe it
So let me know the truth
Before I dive right into you
"i don't know if we're still gonna work." a tear. fucking tear came out of my eye! why?! i don't want him to see me cry! "we will. i know we can." he went closer to me and stares into my eyes. his ocean eyes, that's where i get lost everytime. then i moved away fast. i remember something.
You're a mystery
I have travelled the world, there's no other girl like you
No one, what's your history?
Do you have a tendency to lead some people on?
'Cause I heard you do, mm
"we couldn't do this. you couldn't even apologize properly, sebastian. i just needed one sorry, a sincere one." he sighs and hugs me. so tight, to the point where he wouldn't let go. to the point where i couldn't let go. "i am so sorry. i'm so fucking sorry for everything i've done to you. i know i've never been such a nice boyfriend for you but i promise this time, i will be. just please let's make this work, baby."
So don't call me baby
Unless you mean it
And don't tell me you need me
If you don't believe it
So let me know the truth
Before I dive right into you
is he crying? yes he is. i don't want him to see crying, it would break my heart into pieces. i broke the hug and i cupped his face. "apology accepted." i smiled and he gave me a weak smile. he leaned down and kissed me. "i love you." he said. "i will dive right into you, again." i mumbled.
[kn : yeah this is shit. sorry.]
