parents || phan

(2) mornings

"You don't matter!" I hear the voice shout before everything goes white.

Suddenly, I'm sitting straight up, grabbing my head as my eyes try to focus the darkness of my room. Another night, another nightmare.

Trying to gain some stability, I drag my feet out of bed and crawl my way over to the large window which was still enclosed in my white curtains. Grabbing each side, I fling them open to reveal the lights of the still dark skies in early morning London, which was beautifully shown outside the window of my bedroom apartment.

I grab my laptop off my white vanity and waltz out to the lounge. Sat in my dip on the couch, I hear a mumble or two from the room in the hallway. I can detect some faint curse words before a loud thud as someone fell, but eventually Dan appeared at the entrance of the hallway with his large pyjama pants and laptop.

"Why look who woke up severely early on this fine Tuesday morning," He put his hands on his hips after setting down the Apple product that was occupying them.

I flash a lazy smile before remarking, "Funny to see a Dan Howell awake in the early hours of 6AM." 

He rolls his eyes. "Oh please, normally I'm just going to sleep." We both giggle as I get up to make the tea I was craving. Unexpectedly, I felt two large arms wrap around me and turn around to give Dan his morning hug.

This was a thing we did every morning. Dan would wait for Phil to wake up before cuddling and watching Anime together and I would wait for Dan to give me a morning hug before I made tea. Phil could never go a day without giving me his morning kiss on the cheek and I could never eat pancakes without the two helping. Honestly, the small things were my favourite things.

Unfortunately Dan has to wait longer than expected as Phil has stayed up all night again. Normally you would think this would be Dan, but lately Phil has been so busy with their TV series that he has lost track of his 8 hours and everything else- including his husband.

My dad's told me their daring love story and it has given me almost false hope in true love. See, when Dan was only 17 years old he met Phil (at age 21) through the computer screen. They ended up actually meeting where Phil pushed Dan to start making Youtube videos along by his side. Next thing you know, they were falling head over heels for each other, making out in the back of Phil's car, (or so Dan tells, maybe that part never happened). After Dan tells his parents about this affair, they basically put him under lock and key for falling in love with a boy at a much older age. Phil being the angel he is, sneaks into Dan's house and saves him where they ran away, bought an apartment and adopted me. Now at ages 36 and 40, Dan and Phil ended their Youtube careers and started 3 television series with award winning status and a campaign to legalize gay marriage across the whole world. The whole thing again, truly amazes me.

As for myself, I have lived with Dan and Phil since I was 4 and grown up fully understanding I was adopted. Honestly, I'm so happy to be apart of the family and wouldn't have it any other way.

Dan grabbed his laptop off the table as I passed him a large mug of tea and we both simultaneously sat down on the couch. Opening our internet browser, Dan scrolled through Tumblr as I continued onto my online school work. I would be going to prom and having an actual graduation ceremony this year if my parents put me in actual schooling but Phil worries too much about attention and bullying. So, I end up with a certificate in the mail and a party with my family.

I heard a small yawn from the other room and slow footsteps patter out to the lounge. Phil appears with messy hair and glasses glued to his face. I quickly stand up and run over, wrapping my arms around him as his lips lightly press against my forehead.

"Good Morning Princess," He whispers as I smile into his chest. My feet suddenly leave the ground and I feel Dan's arms wrap around my waist while picking me up and throwing me on the couch. His arms go straight to my neck, attacking me with tickles.

"Nobody gets a kiss from my husband before I do!" He exclaims while I giggle uncontrollably. Phil jumps on Dan's back, making Dan stop and whirl around where Phil hangs tightly around his neck. He slides off and turns Dan around to face him, connecting their lips quickly.

"Get a room," I crack a smile as Phil gives me his piercing glare.

"Amber seems to be the jealous virgin now, hey babe?" Dan pipes up. Phil gasps, elbowing his husband in the ribs.

"You little shit," I murmur before lunging at him, where he places me over his shoulder and throws me on the couch once more.

Attacking me with tickles until I can't breathe, Dan and Phil both finally collapse on the beside of me. Pulling myself to lay on Phil's chest, Dan joins me as I snuggle into both of their warm morning cuddle spree.