My Pathetic Life

March 3, 2020

Tuesday
7:00 am
     I woke up feeling every single one of my limbs scream in exhaustion. It feels almost impossible to open my eyes. I'm confused because I slept at 9:30 pm last night. That's early! I drag myself out of bed and get dressed in a haze, not processing much. I wear what I wore yesterday and stumble downstairs.

     I ask my mom if she had breakfast. I was planning on making an omelet and splitting it but she cut me off saying she was going to reheat some steak with an egg and if I want some. I agree and practice some piano. I eventually eat and watch some news. Washington has closed down a school due to the coronavirus. Nashville had two tornadoes last night that killed 9 people. Dang, that's sad. I used to live there. Eventually, I have to leave.

I walk down our street, somewhat early for once. I listen to the birds make strange noises. Birds here make the weirdest sounds. There is only one person at the bus stop, sitting in a ball with her hood up against the cold. I go and stand by the street and scroll through my phone.

Eventually, more people arrive and I hear someone talking behind me. They are talking about the idiot girl who always stands in the road when she sees the bus arrive. Everyone tells her it's dangerous but she's in a lower grade and a complete and utter annoying idiot.

I laugh and comment about how it only takes a drunk driver to come and run her over. I hope that's enough to get in her head but nope, the bus comes into view and she steps in the biking lane, as usual. One day a car is going to come and that'll be that. It's just natural selection I suppose.

My friend comes to wait with me outside the door of the school once I arrive. We talk about the coronavirus. She used to live close to where they closed down the school in Washington. I talk about the tornadoes in Nashville.

Period 1&2
     History. The desks are arranged into groups. Shit, I forgot we are doing a group assignment. I walk to my group. Not bad, all ok people. My friend detests her group. Haha. Ok, that was mean, I do feel bad for her.

     We are making a game based on the constitution. Our group decides to do a family feud. I find out one guy in my group got in the school that I didn't. I have terrible luck I suppose.

Period 3
     Health. We finish our notes on cigarettes. Then we are assigned to present them somehow. I have a good idea that I share with the group. A few people can read facts while a few people do a silent skit in the background. They agree.

     One person is going to be pretending to smoke while a girl and I talk. Then the smoker collapses and I catch them, and we flitter around them like worried finches. One person pretends to call 911. I think we do well on it.

Period 4
     Science. Shit, I'm presenting today. I feel unreasonably anxious. Someone else presents their project on the evolution of whales. Eventually, it's my turn. I stand up, doing a good job of seeming calm. Well, at least I think so.

     I present my project, the evolution of snakes. I feel my throat close up but force myself to continue, stumbling over some words. Curse my anxiety. I'm quite proud of it actually. I finish and my teacher says wow, what a wonderful job. I grab my rubric. 100% plus 25 points extra credit for presenting. She wrote "Very Well Done" in the margin and I smile.

Lunch
      I find myself somewhat excited to go to the library now knowing I'm not alone. I am greeted by my friend and her friend and her friend's friend. I sit down with my friend while the other two people go to buy lunch. The library is unusually quiet so we whisper and I pull out a thermos full of leftovers.

     I ask if my friend wants anything as I have pretzels and an orange but she says she ate most of her food last period. Ah, that makes sense. The only period I'm allowed to eat in is 7th. The other people come back and we talk about a variety of topics from next year's math to the coronavirus.