My Pathetic Life

March 8, 2020

Sunday
10:00 am
      I woke up to my mom knocking on my door. I stayed up pretty late last night. She says to get up because we are going somewhere. I groan. I look at my clock and it says 9:00 am. She says to remember we are an hour ahead. Oh yeah. Fuck. I'm still in the clothes I wore yesterday.

      I lay down in my bed and go on my phone for like 30 minutes. Eventually, I hear someone ask if I'm ready so I decide to get dressed. I keep on my pants and throw on a long sleeve shirt. Then I put on a black hoodie with snakes on the front. I realize I'm wearing all black. I would wear all black more often but my parents yell at me. I can't believe I can't decide what I wear.

     I brush my teeth and wash my face. What an accomplishment. My mom tells me to change. Grumbling angrily I put on blue jeans. I'm ready a bit too late and I come downstairs to see my family ready to leave. I say I'm hungry. My dad says we can stop somewhere on the way.

      Apparently, we are going on a hike that is an hour away. Nice long car drive. I get in the car and put my music in. I'm listening to Cavetown. We eventually stop at McDonald's. It'll do. I get chicken tenders with ranch. My mom gets a burger and my dad and sister get drinks.

     I eat my tenders. The box has a little ranch holder lmao. I don't really like McDonald's fries so I give them so my sister. I try to give a piece of fry to Ryan but he spits it out. Well, at least I'm not alone. My mom gives him a bottle of milk.!

     Once we finish we start our drive. I just stare out the window with my music. The mountains look really cool from here, we are basically right next to them. I send my friend a picture.

1:00 pm
     We finally arrive after an hour. My brother fell asleep so my mom volunteers to stay in the car with him. My dad, sister, and I get out. I hate to admit that it's a bit cold after I refused to bring a coat. I'm sure it'll warm up.

     We walk on a normal trail between some plants for a while. There are really cool rock formations ahead of us. Eventually, we get to the giant rocks we see in front of us. Are they mountains? Canyons? We start to weave in between them. It's really interesting. I attached a photo.

     You can see all the layers in the rocks carved out by years of water and rain. I ran my hands along the side. We hike for about an hour before deciding to head back. I take some cool pictures and show them to my mom. Ryan is awake and he is playing with a toy.

     We start driving again and I listen to music and fall asleep. When I'm woken up I expect to be at the house. I blink against the light and realize we aren't at home. I ask where we are and my dad says Outback. Ok then.

     We walk inside and sit down. My parents order a Bloomin' Onion to start. That's literally the only reason we come here. I eat some and it's good. I feel the familiar guilt and that nagging at my mind telling me to stop stop stop it but I ignore it. Food is my coping mechanism.

     I order garlic steak with broccoli and lobster mac n cheese. We wait and the food eventually comes. They gave me mashed potatoes instead of broccoli. Are they trying to fatten me up? I don't say anything though because I don't want my dad to flip. The food is good. I don't finish my mac n cheese because I get full.

    Once we finish we start the drive home. As soon as we get home I crash on the couch. Arg, so tired. Shit, I have a ton of homework. I try and convince myself to do it but I end up watching TV. Lazy lazy lazy.

     Eventually, we are sent up to bed. I bring up my stuff. I start on my drawing for English, coloring all the tiny, prickly thorns. I finish that and move onto math. I struggle a bit with the problems and think about how much easier this would be if I had a calculator. Unfortunately, I'm stuck with whispering problems to my Alexa.

1:00 am
     I finally finish all my homework. Yeesh, I should have done this today. I'm exhausted and quietly get ready to sleep. Eventually, I'm on my bed and out like a light.

     Until tomorrow. Stay safe. Ciao.