Surrender

Chapter Thirteen

CHAPTER 13

STILL A CONTINUATION OF THE FLASHBACK

Nick's

That was a wholesome yet tiring night. But really worth it. I knew what I was before, my family, and most importantly my wife and my kid.

Wow.

A kid.

I never imagined myself having a kid. What does he look like? How old is he? Well wait, why am I assuming that the kid's a boy. Baka Ito yung tinatawag nilang lukso ng dugo or something like that.

I slept that night thinking about my wife and my child.

Never did I imagine that all the grief I was going through was overpowered by the feeling of euphoria after hearing I have a kid.

Sino ba naman ang hindi sasaya kung malaman niyang may anak sila ng pinakamamahal at pinakamagandang babae sa buhay niya.

I woke up the next day with a pounding headache. Puta.

Alstein and Jaxon left and I was alone in my room again. Ang mga walang-hiya, nag-iwan pa Talaga ng sticky note sa ibabaw ng tv.

Dear Nick the D**k,

Sorry bro but we had to leave early, hinahanap na kami ng mga jowa namin. At mas importante sila kaysa sayo. I hope you understand. Baka hindi na kami pa-iskorin ng mga yon. But don't worry pare, we can fix our schedule para maka bisita kami jan. Or much better, ikaw nalang ang pumunta sa amin! Umalis ka muna jan sa lungga mo! See you nalang dito pre! We we wrote our numbers in this note para ma text mo kami pag naisipan mong pumunta dito sa amin.

Jax- 09xxxxxxxxx

Als- 09xxxxxxxx

With all the love,

-Jaxon "the pogi" Fuego

Wow, that idiot really had the audacity to put a compliment beside his name. He's too full of himself.

Kidding aside, his note made me think. I think I should visit the city again. Matagal-tagal na akong naka-kulong dito sa lungga ko and I never even tried to escape. Maybe I should consider his offer then? Is this a fucking sign that I should start finding my son? Or Daniella? I'm pretty sure they both are alive. I bet my life on it.

After reading the note and contemplating with my life decisions, I started getting ready for the day. Hindi na ako kumain. I went straight to work. With piles of papers waiting for me on my desk, I drowned myself with work, to distract myself. The day was full of calls, emergency meetings and proposals to be approved. Ang hirap.

Right after my last meeting for the day, I decided to think about it again. Pero hindi pa rin talaga ako makapag desisyon. If I go there right away, no one will be in-charge of the hotel. Hindi naman sa wala ako pinagkakatiwalaan dito, pero iba pa rin kung nandyan ako. I'm a hands-on owner.

Even after dinner, I can't seem to decide yet.

Again, I slept thinking about what decision I have to make.

Weeks after, I think I finally made up my mind. Pupunta ako. And this is final. There's no backing out now Nick, mag-ipon ka na ng lakas ng loob. 

The time that has passed made me think that I should risk what I have. Kung gusto ko talagang makamit ang isang bagay, gagawin ko ang lahat, even if you have to risk your money, fame and credibility. Wala ng saysay ang lahat kung mawawala rin naman lang sayo ang mga minamahal mo.