My 99 Thoughts

Again

There's no positive inside of me don't lie to me when you say you'd cry for me.

Would you die for me?

Or would stay alive for me?

Take a deep dive into the truth and you'll see for yourself that no one else is there for you.

Surrounded by smiling faces that all cry on the inside.

How can you help me when you can't help yourself?

I don't know you cuz I don't know myself and it's hard to say you don't love nobody else cuz nobody ever told you to go love yourself.

Whose fault is that?

This society with shrinking positive propriety?

Your parent for never hearing your cries for help when all wanted to do was kill yourself?

The media that show the brutality of reality and how to be mad at me?

We'll never know how to grow when we never show love for our own growth.

There's no longer room for sleep in a schedule full of fights with your own demons.

Its tiring to hear others problems when you can't solve your own problems.

"Are you a okay" you'd ask

Yes I'd say

"Okay" you'd say

Then I write the night away to conquer my own demons.

Again and again the process continues.

I think I might break