My 99 Thoughts

Selfish

I'm selfish, I know.
I should be grateful, I know.
Your life was harder, I know.
I have it easy, I know.

What you don't know is that new years come new problems, new problems need new solutions and your solutions ain't the antidote for my confusions.

My head is pacing with its heart racing. My goddamn fingers continuously moving adjacent.

Is it love or is it hate? Do you see me as gods plan or another mistake?

These are the thoughts I cannot shake.

You never say you love me or acknowledge my pain. You simply think I'm fucking insane.

Your conclusions ain't a solution.

I cry for help, you hear a bitchy yelp

I say I want to die and you don't even cry.

Go ahead you said.

I'm selfish anyway.