What's Done in the Dark

Chapter 29: Deshawn

"So how's Felicia doing?" My mom asks. I'm changing KJ diapers so I can put his clothes on. I've enrolled him in daycare so he can interact with other kids.

"She's fine. She's supposed to be checking her blood pressure every day since it was high on her first visit. Once we drop KJ off we are going to her doctor's appointment."

When Felicia and I went to her first doctor's visit two weeks ago she was already ten weeks pregnant. The doctor wanted her to come back in two weeks because her blood pressure was elevated. She not taking it seriously.

"Have you talked to Tabatha. She called me Saturday wanting you to call her. That girl is a mess she didn't even ask about Keshawn?"

Nodding my head I think back to yesterday when I took KJ by to see her after my mom and he came back from church. She was sitting in the living room half-naked when I walked in.

I think she thought this shit would entice me. When she saw that I wasn't going to bite she started bitching. Talking about I kidnapped her baby. She wanted him back.

"Yea I took KJ by to see her yesterday."

"Have you told her about the new baby?"

"Nope. It's really none of her business," I say grabbing his shoes to put them on.

"Well, I think you should start handling some of those loose strings."

I blow out a hard breath. My mom has been on me to make things good with Felicia. She doesn't think all my kids should live in single-parent homes.

"Deshawn I know you don't want to hear this but Felicia is a good girl. Trust me your momma knows best."

I don't say anything - too scared I might say the wrong thing. I've been in such a horrible mood lately. Tabatha texted me pictures of Nicolette and some white dude laughing and talking when I was in Vegas.

Them talking wasn't what pissed me off it was their closeness and him having his hand on her lower back the whole time that pissed me off. When I went to pick up a package for my drop Chauncey even talked about how the white boy stuck by her side all night. How sexy she looked and he wouldn't be surprised if she was sleeping with him.

"Have you even talked to Nicolette?"

"Yes, I went over to get some shoes." I stand up with Keshawn. We are both ready Felicia should be coming in 10 minutes.

"Why haven't you got all your things from there?" She asks with a frown on her face.

"Because I don't want to divorce my wife. This is hard for me," I say walking past her. "She hasn't told me to get my shit yet, so there's still hope."

Even though I've been mad at her I still want her to give me another chance. The other day when I saw Nicolette - I wanted to beg her to take me back, but I know it's best that we divorce. I've decided to go ahead and be with Felicia. It makes sense.

My mom doesn't say anything I know I've hurt her feelings.

"Mom I apologize." She doesn't say anything. She walks to her room and closes the door. I sigh.

Hearing my phone beep. I look down and see a text from Nicolette.

Nicolette: Can you come over today after I get off work.

My whole mood turns even sourer than it was before. I rub my hand over my waves already knowing what she wants.

Me: Sure. I can come over.

Felicia: Out here

Grabbing KJ's bag we head out the front door. When I get in the car Felicia is getting off the phone.