I AM 𝙷̶𝙴̶𝚁̶𝙴̶ •• (Ꭿll Might | Toshinori Yagi )

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My adrenaline level is off the roof right now as my heart was pounding through my chest.

He just stared at me with a blank expression. Like his entire world just came crashing down.

I've never seen him like this before...no words were being spoken.

Never in my life have I ever felt like this. I'm a horrible person.

Maybe my father was right...I am destined to be evil...it seems like all I do is hurt the people I care about.

What felt like hours movement was finally made. He stood up from his seat without a glance and went upstairs closing the door behind him.

Physically I felt my heart hurt. Is this what heartache feels like?

Without realizing tears were slipping down my face. I should have known better than to think this was going to work.

My heart told me to give this a try while my mind told me to stop.

I shakily stood up from the table as tears didn't stop from slipping off my cheeks.

Touching my wet cheek I felt the warm tears touch my fingertips.

I've become more sensitive...

I picked up the plates from the table bringing them to the trash bin.

I watched painfully scrapping off the delicious food Toshi took the time to make...go down the trash.

I should leave...I should run away from here...

But I know I shouldn't. I don't want to run away from my problems anymore.

I need to face them head-on. I just...didn't think it would be so hard.

I place the dirty dishes in the dishwasher. Taking a deep breath I clench the sponge.

I bit my lip letting out a sob.

What am I even doing here still...he doesn't want me here. I don't even want me here...

I never wanted any of this to happen. I just wanted to be happy, feel loved, have someone truly care about me.

I wasn't being realistic. There are no happy endings, ending always seems like the saddest part honestly.

"Ugh!" I groaned not noticing I cut myself with a chipped cup.

I wince rinsing the cut on my hand with water. All I want to do right now is cry and scream and just let it all out.

I turn off the handle and double over the sink letting my hair fall in front of my face.

I close my eyes trying to catch my breath from all the crying. I roughly rub my hands over my face.