My Mafia man II

Chapter 2

  

I turned around to see Liam slowly walking away from us holding his luggage. James leaned on the back of the couch staring at the floor; his hand running through his brown hair; I took a step closer to him and asked "baby, what's wrong?" James grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a hug; "he is gone" he softly mumbled almost choking on his own tears; "I knew this day will come but I didn't expected it to happen it this way" he sobbed burying his face in my neck as I stood there still being puzzled about this situation; "James, please elaborate, I don't understand" I whispered rubbing his back; "Liam's gone, I knew he wanted to get out of this lifestyle but didn't knew that he has been planning all along behind my back; he didn't involve me in any of this and suddenly today he packed up his luggage and announced that he will be leaving" he sobbed; I hushed him stroking his hair; "I feel so alone Rose" he whispered again burying his face in my neck. I could sense his pain; his closest cousin betraying him and now his only best mate leaving him; If only Liam have told us; if only he had given us enough time to prepare for a moment like this; as a friend I understand Liam and I will always be cheering for him but as a girlfriend of James this news broke my heart; if only he had let us know I said to myself in my head as I held James comforting him.

After our long hug I pulled away from James; I see his swollen red eyes fighting back the tears that were forming; he wiped his runny nose with the back of his hand refusing to look at me; maybe he is embarrassed of this moment; all this time he has portrayed this strong and fearless character to me and suddenly seeing him broken twice within a year makes me realise how soft his heart his; "you will never leave me, will you Rose?" he asked me looking into my eyes desperately, holding my wrist; if only he knew about the email I received from college; I weakly smiled at him refusing to answer and placed my head on his chest, "will you?" James asked lifting up my chin still searching for answer in my eyes, "why would you think like that?" I asked him over his question; "I don't know Rose, just when I thought I was over Cass betrayal Liam decided to leave me and maybe tomorrow when I get over Liam's departure what if you decide to leave?" he asked not making eye contact with me; I bit my inner cheek startled with his question; "I will never leave you James" I said before my head processed the words that I just mumbled from my mouth; "come here" James said pulling me into another hug as I held him with a guilt. We need to stay in Sicily until we finalised about Cassandra's situation; her dad will be out in parole soon and then the decision will be made since this is a family matter, it is taking longer than it should have; I don't think James will like my idea of moving back home to do my placement and finish my study alone and I know he won't be moving from Sicily until things sort out here. I sighed thinking about all of the possibilities which could make James break away from me; "what's wrong?" he asked with his bloodshot eyes and I shook my head not wanting to let him know.

After 1 week

James is still in denial that Liam has left him; he is still not over it; but he has managed to carry on, with his head held up high; only I know how he feel deep down regarding Liam's departure, only I can see how he misses him each day.

"I will see you tonight" James whispered cupping my face with his one hand and fixing my hair with another; "do I have a choice" I mumbled jokingly which instantly made me regret; James has been sensitive about a topic like this; I can see his forehead wrinkling and his gaze soft as if he is imagining the worst; he look at me with this sad frown "I am joking" I mumbled pulling him into a hug; I start to wonder how will he act when he learn about my placement; "I love you" I whispered pulling him away, I cupped his face with my small hands and left a peck on his lips; with my sudden touch James pulled me more closer and deepened our kiss; " I love you more" he mumbled breaking away from the heating kiss we just shared. He look into my eyes for the last time and turned around to leave. I stood there with a weak smile watching him slowly disappear from my view.

I turn around to clean the kitchen that I made a mess few hours ago to cook some breakfast; I looked at James plate and noticed how he had only eaten toast; I sighed worrying about his lost appetite; I wrapped his leftover and proceeded to wash the dishes.

I don't know how I am going to break this news to James; damn you Liam I said to myself in my head and went through the list of places again; I emailed each one of them expressing my interest to do my placement as it is very hard to get. I bit my lower lip and began to think about the way to inform James. I know he will be so angry at me when he finds out, but I have to, the quicker I let him know the better I whispered to myself. "maam" Mark knocked at our bedroom door breaking me away from my thought; "ok" I yelled knowing he is letting me know that he is here to start his day. I rub my face with my palms, stressing about the situation; I need to come up with a plan; I walked back and forth in our bedroom with my hand crossed over my chest; I sighed at myself for not coming up with any better way; I bit my nails in frustration and looked outside of the window; Jasper was wearing his white suit and talking to Liam's dad; they look very deep into their conversation; I wonder what they might be talking about; the thought of Liam not being with us created a knot in my stomach; I thought about how sad and broken James was when he got the news of Liam wanting to leave us behind. I didn't wanted James to go through the same phase he did, but then I thought to myself it's not that I am leaving him for good; I am just leaving to complete my placement and no matter where I am, I will always be loving him. I sat at the edge of our bed and thought about the long distance relationship; there are so many people out there who is so much committed to their relationship even when they are not physically together; I know I love James more than anyone or anything and feeling is mutual for James. Maybe this is it; long distance relationship, I mumbled to myself, we will work this out, it's only for couple of months anyway and we will be back together again I thought to myself. I need to tell James about it; before he finds out or before it's too late.