My Mafia man II

Chapter 32

I sat next to James in a hospital, the only noise that we could hear was the machine he was being attached to. His mouth was covered with the oxygen mask, his body was covered with stitches and bandages. I wonder if this is what he felt like every time when I laid in a hospital bed, I questioned myself for existing in James life....... if I weren't in his life tonight could have ended in a different way. They would have no one to bait James, no one to threaten him with, James would have no weakness. This is all because of me.

I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, and I look up to find Jasper. He pulled me into his arms, trying to comfort me and I broke. "This is all my fault Jasper, it all happened because of me" I cried out "hush Rose, none of this is your fault, who would have thought John was plotting this all behind us. Instead of looking after my son's back I was busy enjoying my retirement while my brother was planning to kill my own blood" Jasper whispered, "No Jasper, this is all my fault, I shouldn't have existed in James life, if I wasn't there they would have no one to bait James.........he is targeted because I am in his life......a stubborn person who doesn't like to do as I am told" I cried clinging onto Jasper's black suit, "none of this would have happened if I didn't existed in his life" I yelled slowly falling into the cold marble floor, "Rose, James is a better person because of you, you both have helped each other in your own way, stop blaming yourself........the only person we should blame here is John, who was plotting this all behind us" Jasper murmured holding my shoulder, wiping away my tears. "You need to be strong Rose, when James open his eyes I want you to be strong........if he sees you like this he will blame himself for not being able to protect you......please Rose, this father is begging you" Jasper pleaded with eyes filled with tears. As we both held each other and cried we heard the machine beeping louder than it should have........." Doctor" Liam yelled and went out of the room. "James" I called out for his name not knowing what's going on.

"He is just reacting to whatever he is listening to" doctor said with a weak smile, "he can hear us" I asked to clarify and the doctor nodded his head, "luckily the bullet didn't touched any of his heart or lungs so we were able to take it out without any issue but he needs some time to heal, his body needs to be healed for him to wake up physically, he can hear you guys but he won't be able to reply yet due to the higher dose of medication we have given him to numb his pain" the doctor said looking at us. "He is safe, we just need to wait for him to open his eyes" he said with a smile "but....if he doesn't wake up within 72 hours we have to transfer him to ICU" the doctor said hesitating, "what do you mean if he doesn't wake up" I asked him...... "some patients are able to wake up within the 72 hours whilst some may take longer than that...."; "How long?" I asked cutting him off "depends, some take 3 months or 6 months or even longer than that" the doctor replied, and I froze; "look there is nothing to worry about, there is no head injury involved, it all depend on him now....... depends on how long his body take to accept the medication" the doctor said pacifying me.

"James you better open your eyes" I threatened him holding back my tears, "what will I do without you James? Please......i am so sorry for being a pain in your ass......but please open your eyes. I promise to listen to you......i will do as you say" I begged, holding his hands tightly. "he will wake up Rose, let him rest for now" Jasper said comforting me and I nodded.

Now I understand why James track me each time I go out of contact with him, he wasn't being a control freak, manipulating boyfriend but he was doing it all for my own safety. He didn't care about anything in this world other than me, I went on with my life with the people from my past not caring about the people I have in my present but for James his world revolved around me. I was the sun, the moon and the stars in his life. I regret every mean and hurtful words I have fired at him, all this time I was being so selfish, I thought only about me not giving a shit about how James felt. He gave me his world and I was crushing it everyday with my hurtful action. Oh, James if only I have treated you even slightly better than you have treated me. I have never been loved by anyone in my whole life and as if god sent James in my life to compensate for all those times. His love for me was just in another level......a level so high that I will never be able to reach........"I love you" I whispered in his ear and kissed him on his forehead, accidently dropping a drop of my tears on his face. "I love you so much and I promise to cherish you every moment from now on" I promised joining our foreheads.

"Rose, it's daisy" Liam said holding a phone in his hand, covering half portion of the phone with another hand, "what?" I asked me him surprised, "your sister" he said again softly.