My Mafia man II

Chapter 16

After 10 hours

Rose POV

I wake up with the bright light in my eyes, I shuffled around to cover my face away from the lights; "baby" I hear a voice, I look up to find James standing next to me; he look so fragile, his eyes were red, his hair so messy and the clothes coloured in blood; "how's my baby?" I asked him before he could come any closer and all he could do was to stare the floor; "how. is. my. baby?" I asked him again; I placed my hands in my stomach and prayed for it; James's silence was worrying me, "Nurse" I yelled yanking away the pipes that were attached to my body; I feel bit dizzy getting myself away from the bed; "Nurse" I yelled again and headed for the door just then Liam walks in; "Liam" I whisper seeing him, it was a surprise for me to see him here, in the same room with James but I do not want any distraction "where's the nurse?" I ask him; "she will be here" he said holding my arms; "here, please sit" he said holding me until I reach the bed, I look at James leaning against the wall watching me with wet patchy eyes and it started to make me more nervous "how is my baby?" I ask Liam this time, "why don't you lay down, nurse will be here soon" he said trying to re-assure me; I gulped nervously reading both of their face until a brunette walks in wearing a sky blue uniform; "are you the nurse?" I ask her and she nodded with a big smile; "I am Angie" she said checking my vital signs on the machine; she frowned seeing my detached pipes on the floor; "how is my baby?" I ask her this time and she instantly bit her lips, she looked at me then to James and Liam as if she was looking for a correct word to address me; "how the fuck is my baby?" I raised my voice impatiently; looking dead into her eyes; with the corner of my eyes I find Ana and John stepping into the room; "oh thank god, you are here" I said bit relieved to finally see someone who I was hoping to actually answer me; "they are not telling me about my baby's condition" I said sobbing as Ana held me in her arms, stroking my hair, hushing me; "all I want to know is how my baby is, is that a hard question?" I asked breaking into tears, reading the room environment and judging by the face of people I began to prepare myself with the worst news; "let's start with your health, shall we?" the nurse said with a bubbly voice; I pulled myself away from Ana with frustration; "I don't give a fuck about my health, you tell me how my baby is, right now" I yelled with a streak of tears rolling down to my chin. "umm...hmmm..." she began to clear her throat and look at James for some kind of support; "we lost her baby" James finally whispered looking at me; I froze hearing the news; "it was a girl, you had hit on the floor badly, she was dead on arrival" the nurse whispered from the other side of the room and I stayed there with no emotion; for 6 months I have been so attached with this child and suddenly hearing that she didn't make it made my heart beat stop, I felt like as if I was drowned into water, I was able to breathe but wasn't able to move; "babe" James whispered taking few step closer to me; "don't" I mumbled which made him stop immediately; "all this happened because of you, I was happy with my life, it wasn't perfect but I was at least living it and suddenly you come into my life and see what happen? I got shot, I lost my memory and now a child? it's all because of you" I yelled covering my face, sobbing.

James POV

"I am not leaving you neither I am letting you go, I did it once and that's the moment that I regret most. I love you Rose, I love you so much......tell me what can I do to make you feel better? What can I do to win you back? Tell me Rose, let me know because I am loosing myself here" I confessed kneeling in front of her, "nothing, there is nothing you can do to make me feel better James, I spent 6 months with an unborn child, hoping for a future with her and as soon as you came in the picture look what happened? The only thing you can do for me is to leave me alone" she said with her lips quivering, eyes filled with tears and it pains me to watch her like this; "you knew my lifestyle from the beginning Rose, I hid nothing from you, you think I love living like this? I didn't choose this life, my life was set like this even before I was born" I said trying to reason with her, attempting to make her understand. "I think I need some space, it's been a long day or night whatever it is, an important part of me has been snatched away, I think it's better if I can have some space for myself to breathe, to figure out what actually happened and what next from here" she replied looking into my eyes and I can feel that she was playing safe with her words, I could sense that she chose her words carefully to not hurt me, "ok, you need some space, fine I will give it to you, how long you want it for? A day, a week, a month? I am willing to try"; "a long time, until I am healed" she replied cutting me off. "baby, I am willing to wait, give you all the time you need but please don't tell me to leave you or stop talking about leaving me, you mean the whole world to me, please give me a chance, us a chance" I whisper panicking trying to convince her as she stayed in confusion. "Let's give them some space" Liam mumbled breaking the awkwardness from the room and I was thankful for that, that's what I exactly needed, I want her to hear me out, understand things from my point of view, "I am not leaving" John replied giving me a look as if he was her boyfriend, I don't know much about him neither about their relationship but their closeness is bugging me. I look at his wife who is sitting patiently next to Rose, speak something women I said to myself in my head, your husband is refusing to leave another girl alone and she seems ok with that, I smell something more than a friend here, I look at Rose who doesn't seem to mind John's presence, "please, John" I said looking at him, hoping to gain his sympathy, "I am not leaving Rose alone here unless she wants me to leave" he replied timidly and I swear I have killed him thousand times in my head, with a gritted teeth I requested Rose "please, Rose".