Sins of the past

7

🎶 Story's Background Music; Faith (Choral Version) by Oh Joon sung

Sanem's POV

"Where are you? I don't want to go to school, I'm so ugly. Sanem. I hate you. Mum, I wanna be like Minal.
Sanem I love you the way you're! Mum. Hey Piglet! Who is the fatest girl in Kadikoy koleji? I love you Firash. You're so beautiful. Sanem I'm so sorry. If I could change everything that happened in the past. I will. I hate you!!! CRASH!!!!!!!!

"Firash!!!" I woke up from the deteriorated dream I was having. My body was numb and I was sweating profusely.

"Hey, are you up?" My mum asked looking devastated.

"Mum," I whispered. My head was so heavy I couldn't lift it from the bed.

"You've been having nightmares. I had to come to your room. Your dad was really worried."

"Mum, I need to see Firash. He was injured. I did it." I said bluntly.

My mum sighed looking at my cupboard. "You love him so much don't you?"

I was speechless. Am I crazy? I think I'm losing my mind. I was still worried about Firash. He didn't call me since then. And the "Bye Sanem". Was it really goodbye? I kept on wondering. I was scared. Maybe of losing him or accepting the bye means farewell to our relationship.

A teardrop fell down my shorts. "Mum...i..."

"I understand your pain sweetheart. If you want to forgive him and your heart still yearns for him, then go for it. Everything is in the past anyway and y'all matured now." Mum kissed my forehead and left my room. How can mum be so cool and soft-hearted? She ranted and cursed Firash for frustrating my life in high school. But here she was asking me to forgive him.

Well, maybe she was right. Firash has realized his mistake. He has hurt me a lot already so he wouldn't repeat it again. But No! I was too hurt! Firash has wounded me a lot. I can't forgive him so easily, the mere looking at his face would gag me.

Oh, am so confused!!!

I got ready for school and went out. I hate evening lectures. They are so annoying! My face was flaky like I was about to blackout!!

"I think you should see a doctor or therapist. You look like hell" minal said.

"Yes. I know. I have a lot going on in my head right now." I sighed.

"Tamam görüşürüz canim(okay bye my dear)" she kissed me goodbye.

"Kendine yi bak(Take care of yourself)" I waved and crossed the road but I jilted from a long scary in from of me. Oh my God! Am gonna die! This car was moving very fast and fierce with a loud horn. My legs suddenly became weak. Come on move motherfucker! They stood still.

I closed my eyes as the car was about to run into me but a strong force pulled me away from my arrival death.

"Sanem! Iyi misin? Aigoo! Are you okay? Allah korusun." People around me were asking and hovering around me. My eyes were still closed. I was scared to open them. Maybe these voices were from heaven.

Then a familiar angelic voice spoke to me gently. "Hey, Baby. Are you okay?" Are my ears okay? Did someone just call me baby? Omo! Firash. That voice, the scent, his cologne. It has to be him.

I opened my eyes and Firash was staring at me with his golden eyes. God! Melting! He just saved my ass from that crazy driver.

"What is wrong with you? You almost got hit by that car." He was shouting and blaming me while i was dusting away the dirt on my dress.