Sins of the past

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Halima's POV

What was I expecting? He should have a girlfriend. My heart was crushing behind my chest when i saw him with Sanem. What does he like about her? Or made him attracted to her.

Whatever! I have to confess my feelings to him before it's too late. I need to make use of this opportunity for their fight to get close to him. He is mine! He has always been mine!

Firash was looking at me like a stupid boy now. He couldn't even offer me a place to sit. What a rude guy! He was looking scared and insecure. Was it because I came into his room?

He couldn't believe what I said. Lol. Guy, you never see anything (Pidgin Nigerian English).

"Ummm. Halima what's wrong with you?" He asked.

"Won't you offer me a place to sit first?" I folded my hands against my chest and smirked.

"Sit on the chair" he pointed to a chair at my back. I shook my head in disagreement, then hopped into the bed close to him but he jumped out like he was being attacked. What's wrong with him?

"Noooo. Ohhhh. I will sit on the chair instead." He rubbed his leg.

"Firash, why won't you sit close to me?"

"You don't even have any fear. How can you sit on the same bed with me? It's already late."

Huh. I scoffed and rubbed my cheeks. "Firash, this is not the first time we sit together on a bed alone at night! Wait what is wrong with you?"

"Umm. Nothing, Halima. Am sorry but can you please tell me what's wrong? What is this you're talking about? I have a girlfriend and you know that! I love her."

"Firash I don't care if you have a girlfriend. All I know is I love you. You guys are not even married, so you have no right to stop me from making a move on you."

Hummmmmm! He sighs and gets up, rubbing his forehead.

"Halima I thought we ended this a long time ago. You're my cousin. I'm not a fan of a family wedding and so do you. Why are you doing this now?"

"Because I fell in love with you and that's what matters. Family wedding or not!" I shouted and stumbled out of his room before I give him a hot slap on his clueless head.

We had a thing for each other before. How could he throw all that away and all he sees now is a white lady? I'm hurt!

She goes to my school. I need to keep eyes on her. I'm closer to Firash than she is. I love him and not going to let her have him. Never!

I slumped into my bed and buried my head in my pillow. The memories I had with Firash were flooding my head. How can he forget them? Yes, I know that was a long time ago and we've met a lot of people but we can't just let it go. I still love him... I whimpered and slept off.

The next morning, I woke up with a terrible headache. I didn't stay up last night so maybe this was caused by the stress from what happened. I got up, made my bed, and after that, I went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and took a bath. I wore a polka-dotted white blouse and blank long-skirt, my beautiful curve lined the skirt. I knew Firash wasn't interested or pay attention but I was used to wearing these clothes was my style of dressing. Besides, all I had were these kinds of clothing. After I went downstairs, Mama and Edina had already prepared breakfast.

"Good morning Mama, Good morning Edina!" I greeted them cheerfully.

"Good morning to you,Halima." They chanted in unison. I was a frequenter in this house so I felt comfortable around them and vice-versa.

"Where's Firash?" I asked them and sat on the chair.

"He's off to work. You know, Wednesday. He gets really busy sometimes." Mama said. He works for his father's company. Or should I say, family? It's eventually going to be his own, so... Firash never liked the idea of working for the family but he had no choice. But I like that!

"Okay. I need to go out early today. I have my first class." I said and started eating.

I went to school, attended my classes, and meet my only Turkish friend, Eren. I met him when I was 15 yrs old. He was a transfer student in my highschool. Compared to the other guys, he was so kind, gentle, and crazy. He was the only guy that I could trust during those times and now that I'm in a new country and environment. Eren's family had to move back to Turkey urgently after high school but now we go to the same university and he is in his second year, Mechatronic Engineering. He's my male best friend while Lara, Hauwa, are my girl best friend.

After my eyes wandered around, trying to find Eren. Then I saw him talking to a janitor. I waited for them to finish their conversation, only then I approached him.

"Hey! How're you doing?" I said and pat him on the shoulder.

"Hi, Lima. I'm good. What about you? Are you okay now? It's been a while." He kissed me on my cheek and sat on a bench, pulling my hand and signaling me to sit next to him. I feel so calm when I'm with him.

"Yeah. After all that has happened.... you know. It's difficult but I'm fine now." I felt my throat suddenly tightened. Eren noticed that and held my hand tights.

"You okay?" He asked, staring at me with his concerned eyes.

"Yeah. Sorry about that. So, what were you and the janitor discussing a while ago?" I said to avoid an unhappy topic.

"Hmm... Nothing. It's just about my plans regarding an event at Berket's Orphanage Home."

This's one of the things I like the most about him. He's rich but he knows how to share his blessings to the less fortunate.

"So what are we going to do today?" I asked him trying my best to lighten my mood.

"Okay. Let's eat first. I don't really have anything in mind so it's up to you where we go next."

Sometimes we miss our old love ❤️

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