You Hold My Pieces [completed]

Killing Me Softly

Listen to : dive by Ed Sheeran

He held my head high with his fingers so I could look into his eyes. I had waited for a long time to feel wanted by the person I had longed for all my life. The guilt I felt because of the look in Malachi's eyes was short lived when Kyle smiled at me . I melted into his arms trying to hide the fact that my face was heating up . I was overwhelmed with affection, it  would not surprise me if I were to break down in that moment and cry my heart out for no particular reason. I took a step back and I flashed a huge smile at him . My eyes beamed at him like he was the god of love standing right in front of my eyes I was partly ashamed of the fuss I was making but it finally felt like a real first kiss despite the fact that it wasn't . He could sense the awkwardness of the situation and he looked like he wanted to escape without hurting my feelings. 

" You should get home, your father must be worried. " he said genuine concern echoing in his voice. 

Wow ! how awkward.

" Yeah, I should huh. "

 I laughed out loud uncertain of what to say. for someone who had a girlfriend for the longest time he sure sucked at knowing what to say to women. I let go of him and took a step back biting both of my lips to stop myself from sighing. He proceeded to opened my car door for me and I laughed out loud realizing the fact that I finally  had a boyfriend ,so much for not embarrassing myself. I got into the car and I  put on my seat belt before shifting my attention back to him. He closed the door and  I opened my  window to say goodbye to him but his back was already turned and he was walking to his house.

" Okay . That wasn't awkward at all ", I laughed loud enough for him to hear before starting my engine.

I drove home that night not even worried about what trouble I'd be in when I got home and found my father waiting for me . I attempted to sneak into the house but the moment I stepped one foot into the living room he turned his head from the silent television show he was watching and looked at me.

" Sorry dad, Malachi is back and Kyle had left him at the party and I had to drop him off at his house and.... "

" I don't want you to be hurt dear. Every time I tell myself it's fine right, to let my responsible daughter go to a party she'll come back on time but there's always a story. You need to be careful Ronnie. Those boys are no good  and you know it", he seemed like he was holding back tears and that  ripped my heart up into a thousand pieces.

" I'm sorry dad. " I sounded a but overemotional for my liking . My father already hated the guy I loved and his opinion meant the world to me .

"  It's okay, you can go to bed now. "

" Goodnight dad, I love you. " I retreated to my room after kissing him on the cheek. That night I could not get any sleep replaying the kiss over and over again. Not the first one but the one I shared with Kyle. Part of me felt like Kyle was still mad about it deep down and that scared me ,maybe he was just jealous. I hoped he was just jealous but truth be told I am the type of girl you get angry at not the one you get jealous for.

 My phone beeped and I scrambled to get ahold of it hoping it was Kyle texting me to say goodnight or something else that people in relationships say to each other before bed. I looked at the screen and it was an unknown number, I had a strict policy of not replying messages from people I  did not know . My sense of security had been damaged because of the endless hour I spent watching Web of lies on ID extra.