isn't she beautiful?

12 - wake up jimin

danica said that if i wanted to work another shift, i could. but that would mean i have to know a good amount of spanish. i sat in class, practicing how to pronounce words and what certain words mean.  at the corner of my eye, i saw zoe walk into class, she took a seat next to me.

"tell me the rumors aren't true." she blurted out.

i chuckled, "okay, they're not true. what rumor are you talking about, zoe?"

"are you hooking up with danica?"

i shook my head and scoffed, "we're just friends, zo."

"your boyfriend is in a coma and you're doing favors for the first pretty thing that walks by? are you serious right now seokjin?"

i rolled my eyes, "so i have to spend every second by his bed?"

"no one is saying that, but be honest...would you really be spending this much time with danica if jimin was awake?"

"like you're there every night, 'best friend.' tell me, did you have to take showers at the hopital some nights because you didn't want to leave?" i asked, my voice raised louder than it should've.

her mouth gaped open as she retreated back into her chair, i could see everything breaking in her through her eyes. she made me feel like shit, how could she do that to me? i pulled out my phone and texted danica.

1:10pm
me: i can't work tonight
me: sorry

i looked at zoe, she knew i was looking at her too, because she didn't even bother to turn her head.

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i sat by him, holding his hand like i always did. "it's crazy right? who would ask me to be a waiter?" i chuckled.

i sighed, "um, other than that, things have been...really..good."

i shook my head as i looked down at our laced fingers, feeling the tears building up inside, "that's not true...everyone thinks i'm a bad boyfriend. being here everyday...waiting for you to wake up...just because you're stuck here, why do i have to be too? i..."

i rubbed my head as i felt myself being frustrated to push out the words that were in my head.

"i'm trapped, and it's..it's killing me. is there a point to me being here at all? i feel like i'm just talking to a corpse...i don't wanna leave you...but i don't know how i can stay." my voice broke. i sniffled, breathing heavily as i could feel my chest slowly breaking the more i spoke.

"wouldn't it be, amazing if you just woke up right now?" i chuckled, i felt as if i was going crazy. "please..come..come back to me, jimin. please."

my vision became blurry as the tears welled up, falling from my face. my body began to rock back and forth as my grip on him became tighter, "wake up. wake up jimin..." my hand hit his hand, i waited for his eyes to open.

"wake up...wake up! wake up, i know you can hear m-m-m.....wake up!" i struggled to breathe, to talk, the tears just poured out.

wake up was all i could say, i just said it over and over until i felt a pair of arms wrap around my neck. by the smell of the perfume, i knew it was zoe. i closed my eyes as i began to sob more, i heard zoe silently crying onto my shoulder.

"h-how long were you there?" i asked. "long enough." she muttered.

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okay enough writing for today, i think lol
[sorry for any grammatical errors]