Shawn mendes werewolf vampire

Leaving (Book 2)

"ok i will go with you home but you have to promise me you will never leave me and i mesan never leave me becuase i love you and i also dont want to die and i would miss you and i would never forgive myself if something happened to you i love you so much i would cry if you died and we have to have a kid and i want to have a kid with you but at the same time i dont want to i mean i just had four kids and so now it feels weird and please dont be mad at me shawn you know i love you so much but i also love cameron and i dont love either of you more but i love you both equal and i know that sounds like a bitch move and all but im sorry and please dont be mad at me i really am sorry i took cameron when that happened between us and i dont regret it but at the same time i do retret it and its so unfair to you both that i love you both so much but cant choice between you to but its not fair to me that i have to and sorry now im just raining" i say and look up at him about to cry

"hey hey amber dont cry its not your fault i shouldnt have done that to you while we were on tour come on lets get our stuff packed up" he says and he gives me a hug

"ok" i say to him and hug him back .... we pack up our things and shawn goes to find nash

****SHAWN'S P. O. V. ****

"hey hey amber dont cry its not your fault i shouldnt have done that to you while we were on tour come on lets get our stuff packed up" i say and give her a hug

"ok" she says in a small shakey voice i dont think she noticed she was using .... wepack our things then i go to find nash so someone will know where we are but what i didnt tell amber is nash and i already had this planed and not the cameron break up thing but after he broke up with her we planed to get her to go back with me and lose feelings for cameron this way she will be mine and i know that sounds harsh and all but i am her mate and cameron isnt and i get jealous

"hey shawn" nash says snapping me out of my thoughts .... he is alone

"he buddy the plan worked we are going home now we packed and are leaving soon i hope and i know i can trust you to keep this a secret correct" i ask him

"of course i wouldnt like it if one of my best friends stole my mate so i would not be happy and i guess i am just a better friend then cameron because i am willing to help you out more and i know dont tell anyone you went home tell them you went somewhere else and should be back soon and if not you will met us at home but dont you think some of them will be a little hurt you didnt tell them where you too are eledidly going" he asks me and the question rains true in my mind .... would i be hurting all of my friends by not telling them .... oh well amber is the most important thing to me

"nah heres what we do you tell them when we leave that i told you to wait till we leave to tell them we left and do not tell them where we are" i say

"ok" nash says

"thanks" i say

"no problem" he says and gives me a hug before i leave .... when i get back to the hotel amber is talking to hayes .... so[phia isnt around

"so yeah i dont think shawn wants anyone to know but we are leaving i dont know what he told nash but i wanted to tell you because i need a new best friend and i dont replace friends easily but i dont think cameron and i can be friends anymore after what happened" amber says to him .... i cant blame her for picking him i mean he was there when she had her kids and i guess she should get to tell him if she wants to i just with she would have told me she was telling him first

"what did he do anyway" hayes asks .... this is good

"well shawn nash and i went to see what was wrong and dont get me wrong i would have brought you but i thought that he wouldnt want alot of people there and so when we tried to help him .... he screamed at us and then broke up with me because he loves me but he thinks it is not fair about the hole shawn thing .... or maybe i dont think it is fair about the hole shawn thing .... i really dont know anymore hayes i really dont .... but what i do know is that i am going home with shawn and i dont know what HIS plans are but i am hoping we dont have to live with cameron when they get back i mean i called my mom she doesnt mind everyone else staying there even if im not there so i am HOPING shawn and i can buy a house or appartment to get her but i dont want to bring it up becuase i dont want him to think i am just using him for his money because im not i really love shawn and i want to be with him i also dont want to bring up the hole child situation because i dont know how he will react i mean amy alex alec and danielle are not even his kids you know" amber says .... i love the kids even if they arent mine and now that i know what she wants i will try my best to make it happen