The Cabin

Think about it

I was on the ground, shaking, and crying. What was he going to do? I didn't even tell them I was pregnant! I'm such a bad person! I fucking slept with more than one guy, and now I'm pregnant! This would all go away if I made an appointment to have an abortion...yeah..I should have one..I should make the appointment now before someone stops me...

I got up from the floor, and looked at my reflection in the mirror on the wall. I wiped my face, and tried to make it look like I wasn't just screaming, and crying. I headed out the door. I walked passed other offices, and people quickly, and avoiding eye contact. Nothing was on my mind, but getting a meeting with the doctor. I reached the desk of that same woman from my last appointment, and asked to make another. She did the same thing as last time, and took me to the doctors office. I took a seat on the bed all ready to tell the doctor what I wanted right there, and then. She said that he'd be there in 5 minutes. I was so pumped, and excited to get that problem causing thing out off me, and have a less complicated life.

*knock knock*

The door opened, and I saw the doctor smile at me, and he walked in, but I saw another person walking behind him. It was Hanji. I had totally forgotten that a superior had to join in on the appointment at the same time. I was still determined, but my confidence level went slowly down hill.

"How may I help you today (your name)?", the doctor said, smiling.

"Good. I just wanted to talk to you about the thing."

"Oh, your pregnancy? What about it?"

"Yes, I decided that I want to have.. an abortion."

"Oh, are you sure (you name)?"

"Yes."

"(Your name)...", Hanji said.

"When can I make an appointment?"

"Um, I can schedule one in a few weeks. I just want to make sure it's growing healthy, so that when we do the procedure, it'll be free of any complications."

"Okay. So do you want to have another appointment before?"

"Yes, I'd like to have one each week if possible."

"Yeah, that can probably work."

"Is every Thursday good?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Ok then, I think we're done here. Unless you have anymore questions or concerns?"

"Um, none that I can think of, but maybe I'll think of some, and I'll discuss them with you next Thursday."

"Okay!", he said, getting up from his stool, and walking out.

"Hey, are you sure about this?", Hanji said to me before I got the chance to leave.

"I'm pretty positive."

"It looks like you've just been crying. Do you want to talk about it? Or even if you don't, you still should tell me."

"I don't, but I guess I should... Well, all that happened was Levi got me to spit out who the potential father is.."

"Oh.. That must of been hard."

"Yeah, I was crying so hard."

"So who is it?"

That question hit my chest like a lightning bolt.

"Um, it's ether Jean or Marco..", I said looking down.

"Oh, so you don't know?"

"No. It's a long story."