A Dead Girl

Chapter 15 Avery

Avery's POV

I stopped drinking. Sort of, it's kind of complicated.

Today is my first appointment with a counselor. He's supposedly going to help me work through my problems.

"Hi Avery, my name's Jeffrey"

"Hey"

"We're just gonna get to know each other a bit before we jump into anything"

"Ok"

"So what type of movies do you like?"

"I'm a sci-fi fan"

"What's your favorite sci-fi movie of all time?"

"I guess I'd have to go with...Space Invaders, the whole saga"

"Really? I thought I was the only one"

"Your a Space Invaders fan?!?"

"Of course! Wait, what's your favorite movie?"

"Space Invaders Race against Time"

"Mines Space Invaders 2 Kickstart Hope"

"Really? That one was kind of lame"

"Ha! Rude"

"Hey I'm just telling the truth"

"I think we're gonna get along great"

And we chatted about Space Invaders for the next half hour until the session ended. He gave me his number just in case I needed to talk through something and I left.

Me and Amy had planned to meet up at the park to talk about things.

"Hey"

"Hey"

"I heard what happened with Scarlett. Is she okay?"

"Yeah she'll be fine I hope, she's pretty tough you know"

"She really is"

"Now let's talk about you"

"What about?"

"About the drinking"

"I've stopped for the most part"

"Still, why did you start in the first place?"

"It doesn't matter" I got up from the swings we were sitting on.

"It does matter, what's going on?"

"Nothing leave it Amy"

"No, I want to know what's going on with you"

"I'm telling you it's nothing"

"It's not nothing"

"Why can't you just accept that answer!"

"Because it's not true."
Why can't she not try to help for once?

"Fine."

"Go on"

"I've been feeling really just, empty lately. I can't feel anything, and then suddenly all the emotions I haven't felt come flooding out and because of that, I get drunk sometimes. It's the only thing that makes me feel better. And for the numbness, I'm still try to figure out what to do about that."
I looked down at my old shoes that I've had since Junior High.

"Your not thinking about hurting yourself are you?"
Amy got up and came closer to me.
"Are you?"

"No..no I'm not"

"Really?"

"Well I think about it but it's not like I'm actually gonna do anything"

"Avery please if you ever feel like you need to feel something and your thinking about doing that. Just tell me. So we can talk it through"