A Dead Girl

Chapter 44 Quiet

Avery's POV

I feel like our lives are falling apart. Scarlett's back in the hospital, Amy relapsed with her self harm, and me and Jamie are just trying to keep each other sane during all of this.

We don't know how long Scar will be in there. A few months at least. Everyday life is so different and I'm trying to stay hopeful.
"Hey Amy, breakfasts ready"

She seems really depressed, I mean we all are but she's really quiet. I wish she'd just talk to me. I thought about Scarlett falling off that roof and felt my stomach tighten up. It's a miracle she landed where she did and how she did. She could've died. Thinking about her being dead makes my whole body go numb from all the emotion. I started seeing my therapist twice a week instead of once. I guess I'm hoping it'll start to actually help me with all of this.

We were all quiet at the table while we ate and the car ride to their school was silent. She got out and I said bye and she gave me this sad smile and waved then walked into school.

I don't know what I can say to make this any easier on her. The worse part is I know all she's worried about is me. She's not taking care of herself, I don't want her to get bad again especially not now.
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After School

When Amy and I got into the house Jamie was out drinking with his friends so it was just the two of us. The apartment is so quiet when Scarlett's not here and it's gonna be like this for a few months.
"Hey Amy, how are you really feeling" I said sitting on the living room floor next to her.
"I don't know, sad I guess"

"I know this is hard and I know seeing Scar fall off that roof was terrifying. She's getting the help she needs now and she's safe. We don't have to worry about her and I'm sure she wants it that way"

"I can't stop worrying. About her and about you"

"Why are you worried about me?"

"You always act all big and strong like nothing ever gets to you, and your always worried about everyone else but I saw your face when Scarlett was saying all those things to you. You were scared and your still scared. When Scar gets back how will she treat you? Will she hate you? I don't want you to feel like you have to do this on your own"

"I'm okay, really"

"Your lying"
I looked at Amy who looked really tired. She hasn't been sleeping well, I can tell.
"You should take a nap"

"But we're in the middle of a con- a con-

She started to drift off and fell asleep right there. I picked her up and started carrying her to her room. While I was carrying her I remembered this really far back memory. It was the first time I ever held her. I was 3 or 4 and sitting in moms lap, she gave me Amy and I remember she spit on me and I got super grossed out. We've grown so much since then.

When I came back in the kitchen to start dinner Jamie stumbled in obviously drunk. I walked up to him and tried to guide him to our bedroom but he pulled away.
"Babe what's wrong?" He's usually pretty docile when he's drunk but somethings different this time.
"Dis whole family is a mess. You all are disgusting"

"Jamie your drunk, you don't mean any of that"

"Yes I do. All your family has ever done for me is bring me stress and pain. I hate this family and this life you have me living you manipulative bitch"

I felt tears form in my eyes and anger rise in me. "I know your drunk, but that's going to far Jamie"

"Fuck you"

"You know what, get out I can't look at you like this"

"This is my house"

"Leave. And don't come back till you've sobered up"

"Whatever bitch" He said as he stumbled out of the door.

I closed the door and broke down. Now even Jamie's falling apart. I feel like this family is hanging on by a thread. I can't stop crying. I sat at the door and cried for hours until Amy finally woke up and came out of her room. I wiped away my tears quickly and tried to look as ok as possible but it was no use. She came up to me and hugged me and said it'd be ok. It's about 11 o'clock pm now and we still haven't eaten anything. We just sat by the door and stared off into space. I eventually got up and ordered some food and it arrived a little while after.

"So where's Jamie?" Amy asked as she started eating.
"Out" I said looking down.

"Why were you crying?"

"Cause I was sad"

"It might help to talk about it. Bottling up your emotions only make things worse"

"Jamie came home but I sent him back out, he was drunk and being rude"

"Oh. Im sorry"

"I'll be ok. Did you sleep ok?"

"I'm still tired so I'll fall back asleep soon unless you want me to stay up which I'm fine with"

"No no it's ok"

"Ok"

We finished eating and went to bed. The bed feels empty now without Jamie to fill the space. I grab some blankets and pillows and go into Amy and Scars room and set up my stuff on the floor next to Amy's bed then drifted off to sleep.
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I think I'm gonna do a little time skip just to push things along cause going day by day like this just ain't it. Hope you guys enjoyed and I'll cya on the next chapter😌