A Dead Girl

Chapter 11 The End

I just got out of the hospital today and I remember everything now. My sisters and foster parents decided not to put me back into that hospital but I still have therapy and counseling.

"How are you feeling Scarlett?" Amy said.

I just looked at her with dead eyes.

"Not good looks like..."

"I mean well yeah I just tried to kill myself" "again" I mumbled.

"I know but still...let's finish that conversation"

"What conversation?"

"Just before we got the phone call about dad"

"Oh that, sure I guess"

"So what made you want to kill yourself this time?"

"Well it all started with Wendy"

"Who's Wendy?"

So I told her all about Wendy in the hospital and how she left without me and blah blah blah.

"So that's why?"

"Pretty much"

"Are you going to try this again?"

"Not yet"

"I care about you Scar and I love you, so please try to get better"

"You don't think I'm trying"

"That's not what I meant"

"Well what did you mean"

"I know your doing your best I can't and won't let you go, ever"

"It is so incredibly hard ok, no one could love such a broken girl. I'm not worth it okay, if I had died my first attempt you would be recovering from it and you would go on with your life. Even if I stay here I'll still not be worth all of this."

"But you are worth it, how many times do I have to tell you, you mean so much to me and Avery"

"All I do is hurt the people I love and I don't want to do that anymore"

Then Avery walked into my room and sat with me and Amy.

"Let's go for a walk, all three of us"

"Why" I said.

"Just come on, stop being so lazy"

"Fine"

I threw on a jacket and we started walking. We walked and walked and finally Avery stopped. We were in this field with no one around except us.

"I have something to tell you Scarlett"

Amy and I were both confused.

"What?" I said. Then Amy cut in.

"If it's what I think it is I don't think this is a good time to tell her"

"Tell me what?!?!"

They both just looked at each other.

"What is it"

"Well, mom..."

"I'm telling you this isn't a good time" Amy was way more serious this time.

"She needs to know"

"Not now, she just got out of the hospital, we don't want her back in it or worse."

"Are you guys going to tell me what's going on"

"Mom killed herself, She jumped off a bridge"

My heart sank. Even though she abused me degraded me and made me feel like I was worthless, like I was trash it hurt, bad.