Random Bits of my Brain

Time

Don't Rush Time

Forever I feel like a record on repeat

Time is a pendulum, back & forth it swings

Yet time only moves forward

On this planet that we live

People pressure time

& they beg it to give

As my words remain the same

Time is constant, doesn't change

The older you get the quicker time passes

& the less you possess

So why life slips you by,

Then you begin to stress

Without being God, you can't slow it down

& all your fun moments swim by & you drown

You'll rush life away,

But you want certain moments to stay

You can't pick & choose

Time won't be abused

So try not to wish your short time away

Be fulfilled by each moment

Let every second stay

Stretch time out, as long as you can

Marinate in the now

Don't focus on future plans

The present is all the time you are promised

The future isn't guaranteed

so with yourself be honest

Enjoy where you're at

Don't return to past thoughts

They can't be changed,

& your present will be lost

Counter Clock

The clock winds counter inside my head

I let my thoughts wander, they are not led

Away from reality at this time they go

To seasons of fall, which leads into snow

Trees engulfed in fire

Flames of color bursting from the trunk

Swallowing each branch

Bright yellow, orange, red

Brown on the ground, crunchy & dead

The smell of football & burning leaves in the air

Tailgating & the Grove make a good pair

Go Rebs, Hotty Toddy & Who Dat Nation

Autumn leads into winter & vacation

Vacay means Colorado & snowboarding for days

I wish I could live that life forever & always

Snow glittery, fluffy, white

Nothing but aspens in plain sight

The clock winds counter inside my head

I let my thoughts wander, they are not led

To boys of my past, my mind now wanders

There it remains & about them it ponders

One for every letter of the alphabet, no 3 maybe 4

Who cares to count score,

It's not over I'm still racking up more

I hate them all, yet forget them I can't 

They make me feel tiny, like a little sugar ant

Circling a dead object, are the vultures in my head

But my memory keeps growing, keeping the birds fed

Why they affect me so

I guess I'll never know

I wish the thoughts would go

Can't get rid of them though

The clock winds counter inside my head

I let my thoughts wander, they are not led

Where to next? Who knows where the wind blows

Amazingly it never ceases, it never even slows

The clock winds counter inside my head

I let my thoughts wander they are not led

Birthday Candles

Motivated by both my fears & dreams

Life ain't always easy as the way it seems

Both my fears & my dreams keep me alive

I'm curious 'bout the outcome, so I fight to survive

My nerves are crippling

as I fear I will fail

So I choose to feel nothing

Stuff my goals behind a veil

But choosing not to feel

means failing to live

So I relinquish my pride

& I beg life to give

The will to sacrifice

is a growing desire

As grasping for my dreams

rekindles my fire

Ultimatums were made

& now I must decide

If I will choose the path

that puts him at my side

Another candle placed on the cake

A year comprised of many mistakes

Perhaps 28 holds improvement in store

Before I've seen the sun from every angle once more