Random Bits of my Brain

Free Spirit

So many people living inside my body

I'm a traveler, my spirit wild & free

I'm a dancer & a snowboarder, let me be

I write my own words, the lyrics that I sing

But, I still want a man & some big diamond bling

I miss my old life, full of music & drugs

It would be a lie to sweep it under the rug

I miss my boys too, all the good times we shared

But those pawns were bitches who never really cared

I'm so tired of hiding, tired of all the lies

I just want to show you what is real, I wish you'd realize

Dance is my form of expression, snowboarding is my freedom

But now I've lost both

You have taken all there is of me

I'm just a dry dead corpse

I'm a marionette in your puppet show

You pull the strings & I play along

I'm not living anymore

I'm just a sack of dry bones stuffed in some skin

What the hell have you done to me my kin?

You told me you only wanted the best for me, so why did you strip me so bare?

Like our mascots: I am an eagle, I should be free to soar

I am a rebel who can't rebel anymore

I am a panther, but you'll never hear me roar

This is what you made me, this is who you wanted me to become

Well you got your wish, I can't even remember where I'm from

I wish someone would try to revive me, the kiss of life is all I need

Somebody shock my heart, make make me able to bleed

Because right now I feel nothing, nothing runs through my veins

I'm just still & barren, like the dry desert plains

I want to gain control, be the pilot of my life

But, that sure can't happen until I'm back alive

Someone wake me up from this coma I've been in

Right now I cure the dryness as I drown myself in gin

Shake me to life with a waft of mountain air

That's the feeling I long for the most & nothing else can compare