The Fatal Love Of Zamarrah

Chapter 5

"I'll take care of you."

Kung anu-ano ang naramdaman ko nang marinig ko 'yon galing sa kanya. Did he really mean it? For the first time in 20 years, someone volunteered to take care of me.

Shall I accept it?

"Bakit?" I asked him.

"Bakit ano?" he asked me back.

"Bakit mo ko aalagaan?"

"Kasi you need someone to do that for you."

"What makes you think na that could be you? Huh? Doctor ka ba? Nurse ka ba? Do I really look like someone so pathetic that can't even take care of herself?"

"No, alam mong di yan ang ibig kong sabihin."

"You know what? You shouldn't stay involved with me anymore. I can find answers on my own."

"Zam, wag ka namang ganyan."

"By the way, thanks for the meal and sa pagsama sakin sa lumang bahay namin. You've done your part. Enjoy your life."

Before he could even say a thing, pinilit kong tumayo mula sa kama at maglakad papuntang pintuan palabas ng kwarto nya.

"Adios, Mr. De Dios," I said before leaving.

Rude, right? Yes I am. But I did it for his own sake. Masyado na syang nagiging mabait sakin at masyado na kong nasasanay na nandyan sya.

Pano kung?... Pano kung mangyari rin sa kanya yung nangyari sa mga taong minahal ko? Hindi ko na talaga mapapatawad ang sarili ko.

Kaya para hindi na kami masaktan pareho, I should stay away from him so as he. I will, even if I had to do that in the rudest possible way para lalo nya akong layuan.

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Monday morning at school's library, I tried getting him off my mind. I tried forgetting his stare, his smile, his gestures, his kindness, but I ended up remembering everything that happened in just the whole weekend.

I started doing some of my undone homeworks and projects. Ayoko na syang isipin, pero ayaw makisama ng utak ko. I was unconsciously searching for him in this room.

Wala na bang mag-ho-hoy po dyan? Tanga. Ako nga pala 'tonv nagpalayo sa kanya. It's for the best, but why do I feel not so good with it.

Dapat ba hindi ko s'ya binastos? Dapat ba naging mahinahon ako at ipinaliwang pa nang mas malinaw sa kanya kung bakit kailangan kong gawin 'to? Nasaktan ko ba feelings n'ya?

"Hoy po!" napalingon agad ako kahit sobrang hina lang ng pagkakatawag nyang yon.

"Justin?" mangiyak-ngiyak kong tugon.

"Ano? Akala mo lalayo talaga ko? Wala sa vocabulary ko yun. I was born to bug you kaya magsawa ka sa kakulitan ko," he said which immediately made my body weak.

"Pasaway ka talaga."

"Anyway, as promised, I brought you pancakes with chocolate syrup pero sa cafeteria mo na kainin. Tara?"

Wow. Just wow. Is this finally a blessing out of all the curses in my being? I never knew this side of Justin before.

He prepared the food for me as if isa akong batang alagain na di marunong kumain mag-isa. Ang sweet nya mga mamsh.

Do not fall for him. I repeat. Do not fall for him.

"So how's it?" he asked as I take bites on his pancakes.