And So It Continues...(SEQUEL TO I FOUND YOU) *ON HOLD*

Chapter 30

Chapter 30

    I busted through the front door, not aware that Kendall and Mickey were sitting on the couch. They jumped up. “Everything okay…?” Kendall looked at me like I had eight heads. My mouth opened to say something. I was raped by my monster boyfriend. But it didn’t come out. “Uh….sure.” I said, like a deer caught in the headlights. “You’ve been crying…Did you have a fight with your friends?” Kendall asked sympathetically. Well no, my boyfriend shoved his dick into me without consent. That’s what happened. But a fight works too. “Uh…yeah sorta. I’m just gonna go up to my room.” I start walking up the stairs. “Do you wanna talk about what happened?” Mickey asked. I really do. “Maybe later.” I walk up the stairs to my room, grab some fresh clothes. I need a shower.

   In the shower I sat and let the steaming hot water fall on me. Slightly burning, maybe it will help burn the disgustingness off me.I feel sleezy. What did I do wrong? I was always nice to him… I never did anything to hurt him… I feel like I did something wrong.

       Once I was finished being consumed by my own thought in the shower, I get out and get dressed and go back to my room. “Tell me what really happened.”

“Jesus! Mickey don’t scare me like that. Holy shit, don’t you know not to lurk in people’s rooms?” I chuckle nervously. “Oh just tell me what happened.” She sits on my bed. Okay Tessa, you’re gonna tell her. Right here right now. “I wasn’t out with my friends… I was with Adam.” I say quietly. “Oh we already knew that. Kendall was ready to roast you when you got home, but when he saw the state you were in he decided against it.” Mickey explains. Oh great. “So did you fight with him? Did he break up with you?” Mickey asks. Kendall bursts through my door before I could say anything. “You’re in a heap of trouble!” he pulls out the parenting card on me. “Kendall! Go back out there she didn’t even tell me what happened yet!” Mickey screeches at him. “Oh. Crap. Sorry.” He walked out, closing the door behind him.

     “Anyway, what happened?” Mickey asks. I tell her. I tell her everything. The sweet look changes to horrified and plain afraid. I was in tears again. By the end, Kendall walks in slowly, with the same horrified look on his face. “Please Tessie, tell me you’re joking.” He says quietly. “Why would anyone joke about this?!” I yell through my sobs. Kendall comes over and wraps his arms around me. “Sorry, I just don’t want to believe it actually happened.” He said quietly. His chest muffled my cries. “What do we do now?” I ask quietly. “I take you to the hospital.” I nodded quietly.

                I got into the front seat and Kendall drove. It was silent. There was nothing to be said.

   We waited in the waiting room for an hour and the doctor finally took me in. she had to do a rape kit. They needed evidence it was Adam. When they were done, Kendall came in. “Okay the case has been set up and once they test all of the DNA and it’s Adam, they’ll make an arrest. Everything will be fine I promise.” Kendall reassured me and grabbed my hand. “Okay..” I practically whispered. “Come on, we can go home now.” Kendall helped me up and we walked to the car.

Still more silence.

    “Are you hungry sweetie? I know it’s late but I don’t want you going to sleep on an empty stomach.” Kendall said, going into the kitchen. I sat at the counter. “Uh, sure.” At that, he started making food.

    “I don’t know how this works, do you need counseling or…?” Kendall trailed off, not knowing what to say. “No! No counseling needed. I’ll be fine.” I don’t need counseling. That would mean I’m crazy like my mom. Which I’m not. “Okay okay. You know you can talk to me right? Because I feel like we’re as distant as we were your first night here.” Kendall worried. He looked stressed and worried. “Yes I know. And sorry I just don’t feel like being all close.” He understood exactly what I meant by that. I was just violated deeply and I don’t wanna go near anybody right now. “I got it.” He said. We ate and I went to bed. No nightmares. Nothing that disturbed my sleep. I just wanted the day to end. And maybe tomorrow, try and pretend it didn’t happen.

Next Day

“Tessa!” Kendall yelled, running up to my room. “What?” I ask, terrified. “The police got the DNA results and arrested Adam! This is all happening way faster than I thought!” Kendall was happy, like REALLY happy. “Okay. Great.” I say. I knew they were gonna catch him. I’m just scared of the aftermath at school. I don’t wanna be “that girl who sent Adam to jail”.

         Kendall layed down next to me. “You look nervous. Don’t be. Whatever is meant to be will find its way. I’m not gonna make you talk to me about it. But you know I’m here.” Kendall says quietly. “I know the kids in my school. They’re gonna be horrible to me.” I practically whisper. “Tessie listen to me, everything will be okay. Got it?” Kendall said gently. I just nod quietly. “There’s only a month left to school anyway. It’s all gonna be just fine.” Kendall pushes the hair out of my face. “I’ll try to believe that.” I say still mortified. “Would I ever lie to you?” Kendall asks, smiling. “…No..” I hesitate and smile weakly. “There ya go Tessie. Smile, you’ll be fine.” He kisses my cheek. “Okay, so what do you wanna do today?” he asked. “Nothing. I wanna hide in the house all day and ignore my responsibilities.” I mumble and pull the blanket over my head. “Awh T, I know you have dance and stuff but I’ll let you stay home just this once and be lazy. But you’re going to school on Monday. I don’t care how nervous you are – you’ll be okay.” Kendall says firmly. Ugh, he’s actually learning how to be a responsible guardian. I was hoping this day never came.

“Fine.” I mutter and turn my tv on. “Close my shades I want it dark in here.” I demand. “Hey, no attitude,” he closes the shades. “I know you’re being very moody right now because of what happened, but I’ here to help don’t be bitchy at me.” He gets defensive. I feel bad. “Okay…sorry…” I whispered. “It’s okay. Do you want anything?” he asked. Yeah, for Adam to be dead and a Xanex would be lovely. “Uhm, just coffee. Thanks Kendall.” I get up and hug him. “No problem. Can I join you in avoiding responsibilities?” he giggled. I nodded and he went to get the coffee.

         After an entire Saturday of resting and ignoring life, I need to get my shit together on Sunday. I need to tell Lily what happened.

Sunday:

        It’s 3am. And I wake up to my phone ringing constantly, so loudly too because I forgot to turn the sound off. “Turn your damn phone down!” Kendall tiredly yelled from his room across the hall. I quickly answer.

“ADAM RAPED YOU?” Lily screeches into the phone. I sigh. “How did you find out?” I mumble into the phone. “Well I mean, it’s not every day that a 15 year old goes to Juvy for raping his 14 year old girlfriend. I saw it in the newspaper.” She says. “AT THREE IN THE MORNING?” that’s literally my only question right now. “I can’t sleep. Why didn’t you tell me?!” she yells sounding hurt.

“Because that’s not something you go around and yell at the fucking rooftops! How do you expect me to tell people that?! I don’t need everyone knowing! Especially because Charlotte is coming to check on us tomorrow!” I just took out all of my anger on my best friend. Crap. Before she can respond, Kendall comes in. “Tessa! Quit being so loud and go to bed!” he’s annoyed because I woke him. “Sorry Kendall..I will in a minute don’t worry.” I whisper. He just sighs and goes back to his room.

“Whatever… I’ll talk to you later..” Lily says upset, and hangs up. What did I do wrong? Yeah okay, I yelled. Big whoop. But seriously, how was I supposed to tell her?

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