I am no monster (Vampire Knight x Reader) *UNDER EDIT*

Chapter 18: Unable

*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

I could hear fait murmuring but i couldn't quite make out what these people were saying, i continued to pretend to be passed out. I had actually woken up a couple of minutes ago but since it is my mission to kill them, whatever they're talking about could help me, deciding enough was enough i opened my eyes to be met with blue, not just blue anything...blue eyes. Sitting up in shock my forehead came into contact with his nose rather harshly, he groaned in pain staggering back while i clutched my aching head "what on earth were you thinking watching me like that?!" i snapped at him pouting at the red mark on my forehead.

He got over the brief pain easily and grinned sitting down next to me taking one of my hands into his, bringing it to his lips he placed a kiss on my knuckles "it's so good to see you again" he whispered the flirty look on his face now wiped off and replaced with genuine happiness, he stroked the back of my hand with his thumb gently "um..not to be rude or anything but...who are you?" i asked. The happy look on his face was wiped off just like the flirty one and he frowned his eyes reflecting sadness, the strange boy played it off with a pout "my name is Aido, Hanabusa Aido" he greeted now shaking my hand instead "well it seems tou already know who i am so there's no point in introducing myself" i shrugged pulling my hand away from him.

Although Aido seemed sad he smiled, it appeared he was just happy to be in my presence "were we friends once?" i asked "what?" he spoke up "friends? You appear to be happy and i feel like part of me knows you so...were we friends once?" i elaborated. The blue eyed vampire contemplated the thought before nodding "yes, very good friends" there seemed to be pain in his voice but not physical pain...emotional pain. Humming in acknowledgement i rested back on the couch and closed my eyes, i searched his name in my brain trying to desperately to remember this man, all of the sudden my head began to pound. Grabbing it and leaned forward in pain i squeezed my eyes closed, Aido gasped "Lord Kaname!" he yelled, soon a slapping on the floor from shoes could be heard, and multiple people rushed in.

Letting out a whimper as  my head ached even more i immediately stopped thinking into Aido and the headache began to disappear. I let out deep and ragged breaths as the pain began to leave, dropping my hands i let my head fall onto my knees "are you alright?" a soft voice asked. Glancing up i noticed another vampire, he had relatively long brown hair and reddish brownish eyes, in all honesty he looked alot like the girl they call Yuki. There was a strong sense of power lifting from the boy "you're a pureblood?" i asked, he smiled and nodded "my name is Kaname Kuran, this is my sister Yuki" he said gesturing to the girl waving beside him, everyone seemed to so sad.

I looked up at everyone who had gathered in the room "did a tragic event just occir beside the many deaths?" i asked, they shook their heads confused "is that so? You all seem so sad" i mumbled but they caught it. They told me they were fine and introduced themselves, there was this void in my stomach, it felt so empty like all that existed in it was air as they introduced themselves 'i know these people...but i how? Why can't i remember?' i thought to myself "please, if you all wouldn't mind i would like to get some rest" i spoke up.

A man that introduced himself as Kaien stepped up "i'll show you to your room" (i had been sleeping on the couch earlier) nodding i stood allowing the man to take my hand as me knees were shaky and assist me up the stairs. He opened the door and sat me down on the bed "and who were you to me?" i asked, humming in confusion he looked to my eyes "me? I suppose i was a father to you" he smiled softly. Laying back on the bed i closed my eyes "thank you" i whispered as he left.

For whatever reason my mind was preventing me from finding out who these people are, i don't know if i actaully knew them and lost my memories or if they were lying to me. I can't seem to find any proof of me knowing them before this war, all that happens is a migraine, i need to find out before i can fulfill the head of the vampire hunters associations dying wish.

Because whoever these people are i'm unable to tell if they really care like they act, i'm unable to tell if i know them, i'm unable to tell if i trust them and yet...some part of me is telling me i should. I really need to know.